Was feeling up but now down

[Ali_boo]

Having a few days of work been doing gardening which I find very therapeutic - sitting enjoying my accomplishments with a glass of wine - you probably think well what’s wrong with that!! Feeling quite down again wish I could share this with someone special even a friend but again loneliness creeps in 🥲! Why doesn’t my son contact me, why don’t I have more friends, why hasn’t my sister spoken to me for over 2 years, why did I have to put my dog to sleep why did my mum die!!! Maybe I’m a horrible person!!!

[Joeyman]

Hello Alison, I feel your pain. It's startling how one moment we can feel so happy and then a few moments later, we feel the blues. That is the power of thought. But there's a silver lining- if they are just thoughts, then they are just neurons firing inside your head reminding you of the past or making up possibilities about the future. It's not your fault. Thoughts are like plants; one season they may shed their leaves but soon they will grow back. Don't forget to smile.

P.S. You are not a horrible person.

Flowers in a garden

[Ali_boo in reply to Joeyman]

Thank you for your response - wish I could just ring my mum and talk to her she was a wonderful lady so kind 💕- hope you are ok

[Roxylox]

Oh I'm certain sure you are not a horrible person. Maybe you are just getting maudlin while drinking your wine after your hard days work, and as you say there's nothing wrong with you having your glass of wine. I'm very partial to a glass myself pretty regularly!

Loneliness can catch us at odd moments. I often wish I had more friends too, but I xon't think it means I'm not a nice person 'cos I don't. I'm shy and my dauvhter says I have a resting bitch face!

So feel consoled by my facial affliction!

[Weelon]

Hi Alison, I’m sure you’re not a horrible person. Does your son has his own family & busy with life, same with your sister. I don’t have many friends cos I’m selective. I’d rather have none than ones that are not right for me. Try & not be too hard on yourself 🌻

[Midori]

Hi Alison, Please can you lock your post to the forum, otherwise your sensitive info will be all over the internet. You will almost certainly get more replies too, as people are more likely to reply to a locked post.

[Ali_boo in reply to Midori]

How do I do that

[Midori]

Can't find it at the moment, but if you search the side bars you should be able to find it. It's been so long since I joined and actually posted a request that I have forgotten but I think there is an option to lock when you post. It just stops your sensitive stuff ending up everywhere on the Net.