Reaching out desperately

[Mammamia2]

Hi. I'm sorry I need to check this site more often. I'm in a big MESS. I have been diagnosed with arthritis of the knees and desperately waiting for injections. Also I have been diagnosed with bowel disease, probably ulcerative colitis. I have 3 severely autistic teenagers who rely on me. My oldest has just recently moved into a brilliant care home but I still care for him and my other 2. I am finding life very difficult with the problems I have on top of severe depression and anxiety . Since COVID-19, respite is not an option for me an I am past exhaustion. I am very overweight because immobile and getting into a very big hole of depression. Some things people say to me make me very low. I know I am big, not because of food but the constant energy drinks I throw dowm my throat which doesn't even do anything fo me. ADDICTION I am to the damn things. I want to be able to enjoy my boys and not have this mobility problem that is sucking me under. My boys are all I live for. Without them, there wouldn't be me.

[b1b1b1]

Try very very hard to give up the energy drinks. They are not good for you. Make an effort to eat healthier food, which will in fact give you more energy than the energy drinks. If you can lose some weight that is likely to reduce the pain in your knees. I understand that this is very difficult, but your health is at stake and you want to be there for your boys.

[brokentoo]

I know it can feel insurmountable, but please just take it (not even one day at at time if that’s too hard), maybe one hour at a time or a minute, if necessary.I know how it feels to be in that deep hole, but know that you have value and that you are loved and that you mean the world to your kids.

Cut yourself some slack, a lot of slack right now, and maybe try to ‘distract’ your mind from dark and discouraging thoughts ~ whatever it takes, tv, being outside, anything.

And don’t listen to those who may criticize you as it is understandable you are just doing what you need to cope right now.

It’s ok, you are worthy of kindness and of love. I wish you peace of mind and health.

[JkBauer]

Good afternoon,I am so sorry to hear what an awful storm that you are going through right now. One thing that I have learned in life is that when I am in a spot where I have hit rock bottom, I look up and pray to God for help. "Help me, Lord Jesus!" I am stuck, I do not know what to do or where to go, or how to start. I need your hand now! I am reaching up, take my hand, and help me. In Jesus Name I pray Amen

[gramabrenda]

Dear mamamia2,

I understand. It is like you wake up one day and go “oh whoa” I gotta get outta this mess.” My situation wasn’t exactly like your’s but very close with some variables. When this happened to me, here is what I did.

First, each day I remembered-Today is the “first day” of the rest of my life. So when I got up in the morning I put one tablespoon of my “First Day” mix in a glass of water and drank it down. I waited about 20 minutes before I ate a healthy breakfast and coffee.

First Day Mix recipe is-In a pint jar put 1/3 cup raw honey, 1/3 cup lemon juice and 1/3 cup of Bragg’s vinegar (no other brand). Fill up with water and put in refrigerator. Use daily.

Secondly, I made a pitcher of Ginger tea. Sometimes I used ginger mixed with lemon, green tea or whatever I liked. The ginger is like a natural pain killer. I drank this all day long. Then I got some bee pollen and royal jelly mix and took a spoon of that each day (I have also used the capsules a good brand is Swanson’s or Durham’s). This is energy food. Fudge made with nut butter (peanut butter is ok, I like almond butter or pecan), powdered milk and raw honey in equal parts is also a good energy food.

As I was able to get up and go I changed my diet to healthy foods. Very little sweetner. I used brown sugar and honey when I used sweetner. No carbonated drinks. This started me down the road to health. It took several years before I was up and fully going. I added Bible study, prayer, fellowship with believers to this and eventually added a product called“New U”. It comes from Ole South Winery in Natchez Ms. It is dried muscadines and two capsules per day stopped the scrape-crunch in my knees.

I am praying for you to find a new day. I am praying for God to give you strength to restart and to care for these precious boys. You can do this Mama, one day, one step at a time. The road back is tough but it is worth it. Incidentally, I put the kids, who needed it, on the Rhinegold Diet and ate along with them. This really helped. God bless you and your precious family. Whoee, we can do this. Today is the first day of the rest of our lives and we have a reason for living.