Life Changing

[Ganeshh]

I feel like I'm changing. I see the good and the bad. How I want to do more with myself and push myself in a healthy way, however I'm very irritable and bitter over the way people have treated me in the past. My family and I are just getting out of a rough spot when we were homeless for about 8 months. And the whole experience needs to be processed, but I've been moving so fast I've never had time to think about it. I'm afraid I'm going to let myself change and adopt these negative behaviors. I understand were they come from, basically to protect myself from others who want to do me harm. I am worried I will close my heart off to people and not let anyone in, being nice isn't as easy as it used to be. And when I go through pain whether it be emotional or physical, I find it hard to be a kind person when I'm so enveloped in my own suffering. What can I do to just center myself and feel in control again, or should accept were I am and do the best to mold myself into a good person?

[PapaDocs]

Of course you are changing, everyone does but in increments that might be unnoticeable for some while huge increments for others. If you learn to erase the hurt from the past and forgive people for what they have done, that is a big step and the irritability might go away because you will not be dwelling on it. It is hard to mold one’s personality because you will not be objective. You need someone to help you. For me, a pastor helped clear many things for me. Consider talking to a pastor is there is a nearby church in your area. You might be surprised with what you hear. Good Day, friend.