Another New day

[Fruitsofspirit]

Morning all. Woke up in pain, but otherwise no anxiety. Turn on christian music, praising God. Took meds. Checking in on group. Waking up times is taking less time. Had to take pain med so feeling little drugged. Starting to eat more. Still going through crying here and there. Yesterday had great time with my great granddaughter 4 years old. Had a blast, granddaughter and grandson visit injoyed the time with them. My bestie freind been here every weekend. Love our time together. Tomorrow 2 sisters in-law coming up to visit. People who came to know and love the Lord through our life's over the past 45 years coming to visit. Yesterday had a 6 Year old tell me he is sorry to hear I'm dieing. Pure hearted. Tears didn't stop for a while. The Lord is with me through it all. Will I fix the phone problem. Didn't get much exercise as I hope. But that ok. But I still feel good for myself of all did get through. See what I find to do to feel good. Getting really hot so need to dress cooler. Hope today u'll find something good for urself. Praying always.

[RIO-heart]

It is so good that you have family and friends to come and visit. Sounds like you had a really great time with Grandkids! You are strong and brave and always looking for the good in everything. Thinking of you and praying for you❤🌺

[Fruitsofspirit]

Well that's good u trying to do something. I've cried during doing many things. Balling my eyes out. Been doing cleaning up here for tomorrow visit with my sisters in law. I hope and pray my mental emotional doesn't take over tomorrow. Kinda of stressing. Probably no need but they never really seem in my depression anxiety state, always been able to to hide it. Be praying 🙏💗.

[Marshall64 in reply to Fruitsofspirit]

If you get emotional, wouldn't they understand? Try not worrying about that.

[Fruitsofspirit in reply to Marshall64]

Probably. They both have loss their husband. One in a very bad 18 wheeler vs motorcycle. Couldn't see his body. Think that when I started feeling depression, other kill himself. My husband brother. It should all be ok. It's just me.

[Roxylox]

Thanks for your good wishes, nice to hear you so positive. Your post has encouraged me to tune into online Sunday Mass. Haven't done so for a while.

[Fruitsofspirit in reply to Roxylox]

There a difference having a person relationship with and really surrendering all of u and ur Life

[Rafiki11]

I’m happy to hear that you are finding the joy in a very difficult time. It is okay for your loved ones to see you express sadness and fear. They already know you are feeling this way. There is no need to hide it.

[Fruitsofspirit in reply to Rafiki11]

I know, it's just I did this to my self by being a stress smoker. Try quitting 1000s of times. Stress came back to smoking. My 2 failure. Both who are coming are high to in nursing. One very judgement but not to be hurtful or anything like that, but the one I always call, she never sugar coat anything. She 4'11" German nurse. lololol 😄. I love her. The other just the opposite. It will be ok day.

[Rafiki11 in reply to Fruitsofspirit]

I hate to bring this up, but you’re a great-grandma. You are not young.

If not cigarettes, it would be something else. You don’t get to take all the credit for your clock winding down.

[Marshall64 in reply to Rafiki11]

I agree about not hiding her emotions. My mom never lets me know if she is in pain or if something bothering her. I WANT to know if she is going through something.

[Broken1971]

You are a trooper! Greatgrand kids? Wow! Sounds like you have a lot of love around you!

[Fruitsofspirit in reply to Broken1971]

Very blessed. Love them 💗💗💗