My wife started using meth at 45yo. We have 2 children an 8 & an 11yo. The 8yo has type 1 diabetes.
She started using over a year ago, it got so bad I had to take the kids and leave. We are now separated and I've filed for divorce. The kids stay with me.. I've always struggled with anxiety and depression but this has me over the top. The only thing holding me together is that I can't let my kids down. They've been through and seen too much. Does this ever get better?
Hi Shaq72,I can reply only from experience as a child of a parent like that. My mother was a user and abuser of many substances and surrounded herself with many terrible people she considered her friends all the while exposing that to me and my little sister. My parents divorced when I was 8 years old. My dad didn't understand till much later that it was best for us to be away from her instead of him still trying to expose us to a "mother".
From the sounds of it, you see to be an amazing parent just by shielding your children from her. It's difficult, I remember a fight I had with my dad where he screamed at me "you don't know what it is like to see the one you love become a monster" but it is best for you and your children. I'm so sorry you and your family have to experience that but you are strong just by taking those steps. The pain gets better. It's always there but it's dull. Find support systems and family therapy with your kiddos. I wish my dad did that with me and my little sister.
Keep your head up, it gets easier but the hardest part is doing it everyday.
I can only speak for my experience. I had given up hope that my life would ever improve. I turned 50, I was miserable and felt like I would just get older and die. Then I found out that I could get some help and things were bad enough that I was motivated to take some serious steps. And things got way better!
So I would say that ,YES , things can improve . I thinks it's also important to get every bit of help that is available to you and your kids! It sounds like you have already taken some huge steps but you don't have to do it alone.💚
Sounds like you have gone through a lot in the past year. It does get better... it takes work. Give yourself credit You have taken huge steps, in the right direction, for you & your kids. Continue reaching out for support & make sure the kiddos have it too. You guys can do it.
My Twin has passed away 
when will this pass? 
Have you ever saved a life?
My love is no gonna change ever 
