False Alarm

[Catsamaze]

After 2 years of insomnia and intermittent severe fatigue attacks I experience two consecutive days of really good sleep and no fatigue. Finally, this nightmare is over! I’ve figured it out! Yay me! Then insomnia and fatigue return. And I am crushed, like the robin who flies back north in the spring only to experience a late-season blizzard. I’ve been had. But I know better than that. Instead of thinking everything is finally “fixed” all of a sudden, I can try to appreciate small signs of progress on the way to healing. I know there are setbacks, small and large, on the path. And they are not my fault though it feels like they are. I know this intellectually but too often not emotionally. False alarms are usually considered to be positive. What I’ve described here are false alarms that are disappointments. They are the mistaken belief that I’m out of the woods entirely when I am definitely not. Not yet. The waiting is the hardest part, right? More work to do...always.

[Agora1]

Catsamaze, I too see it as a glimpse of the sun starting to shine through. At first we

may think that we reached our goal abruptly. Then with a little slide back, we realize

that our issue didn't happen overnight and it will not disappear overnight.

Time is a healing sign of our chronic issue. Work with the small steps of success. Embrace those good days and don't fear the bad. In time, all in time, the sun will shine again xx

[Catsamaze ADAA Volunteer in reply to Agora1]

You made my day, Agora!.....but then again you’re used to doing that for people aren’t you? 😊

[Agora1 in reply to Catsamaze]

I sure try my dear... xx