Not asking for advice just venting x

Looking for direction in life as im starting over again for the second time with in 3 and half years of doing it the first time . I had moved town jobs away from everything I've know family friends , to then have to give up my new life new job, home. To be back in my home town which i dislike but three of my children are here!!!. Having to stay in a womens refuge for 8 months so far, at the grand old age of 50 im scared and alone. looking for a please to live ( job) which i don't have to think about right now, as i have health issues at the moment. But where to go 🤔