Please someone listen

[naty_t]

Long story short about me my family is very tight but I am the outcast and yes they support and help me with so much and I should be grateful but they do not understand anything about me.

I am recently divorced to a narcissist so YAY me but I do have a 7 year old with autism.

I know I should be grateful the divorce was easy that I have my son that I decided everything and I didn’t have to fight anyone but I’m not. I feel like such a bad person bc all I could think of is how my ex gets to have a life and do whatever he wants whenever he wants. And I am over here getting yelled sweared and hit bc my son can’t control his meltdowns. I feel like I have had no life I have t done anything fun by myself something for me and I don’t feel like I ever will im stuck.

I know I should be happy but I’m not

Today I had a hard day at work and as I was leaving I almost got hit by a car walking to my car. It scared me that I didn’t feel anything I wasn’t scared nothing.

Another thing I was hospitalized 2017 for depression and suicidal thoughts.

I just don’t have someone to talk to I feel like a nothing

[Hb2003]

Hello firstly welcome to this wonderful amazing site 😄 . I wanted to tell you that i have a brother who is on the mild side of the autism spectrum . I can sort of empathize your frustration about your son sometimes my brother gives my mom a hard time and its sometimes hard to deal with. but the most important thing is patience . Much love kindness and support-Hiba

[Fairygranny]

Respite care avoidable in your area for your child? School should help with resources available!

[naty_t in reply to Fairygranny]

Respite car is available but it’s during times he has ABA.

[Fairygranny in reply to naty_t]

I know you can get weekend help as well! Would that help?

[CoderMom]

It is so difficult when you have family who do not support you.