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i literally completely forgot about this. i'm really not doing any better. horrible two days. i'd rather not get too into it just in case. but i'm just not doing great. same stuff with my parents tho

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MMoth

Glad you reached out. You are loved. Hugs.

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Agora1

magicly_rose, not sure what you might mean about not wanting to get too into it just in case.

Just in case what? Your parents see what you wrote? It must have been something significant if you have had 2 horrible days. No one forces you to talk about what you may

feel uncomfortable with, however, you also cannot sweep it under the carpet. If you have

a therapist you trust or someone on the forum you can PM, it would be a release of sorts

to talk about why you aren't doing better. :) xx

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magicly_rose in reply to Agora1

just in case mom sees this, yeah. thanks for the advice tho. there's just a lot going on. its like a whirlwind of emotions. to the point where right now i just feel numb.

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Agora1 in reply to magicly_rose

I figured rose...I want to keep you safe from your thoughts and more so your actions.

Just know that we all care about each other. Whenever you should feel ready to talk,

we are all just a message away. Hugs, :) xx

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magicly_rose in reply to Agora1

its not that i'm not ready to talk. i haven't been able to shut up to my close friends. i'm also not going to off myself. not something i really want. this is just a lot

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Agora1 in reply to magicly_rose

Talking to your close friends is a good outlet.

It sounds like there is a lot going on right now and who better to understand

than friends your own age. Take it easy. :) xx

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magicly_rose in reply to Agora1

yeah that's true. i also spoke to one of my teachers for almost two hours. she helped a bit. sadly a few of my friends are literally in the middle of this so they're the ones that are listening

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Agora1 in reply to magicly_rose

Sounds complicated but it sounds like you are finding ways to talk this out

and rethink your thoughts. Talking with your teacher was a good idea. :) xx

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magicly_rose in reply to Agora1

thanks. its just a really big decision and action and its giving me a lot of anxiety. worst anxiety i've felt in a while, i think

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Agora1 in reply to magicly_rose

Think through your big decision and action clearly before making a forward move.

You don't want to regret your decision. Maybe sleep on it tonight. :) xx

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magicly_rose in reply to Agora1

i've slept on it for nearly 3 years and made the wrong decision each time. i think i know what i have to go with. its just a lot

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Agora1 in reply to magicly_rose

Oh my goodness rose, this isn't something recent?

3 years is a long time. Is it any wonder you are feeling more anxious

than ever. Your mind is telling you that it's time to make a decision

and that's got to be hard to do after carrying it around so long. I hope

you go with your gut feeling and do what needs to be done (as long as you keep safe)

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magicly_rose in reply to Agora1

thanks. i think at this rate i just have to follow my impulse and go with the choice i have in mind. the thing that makes me anxious is that it could hurt someone i love. not forever but it affects her too.

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Let me know what you decide. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts tonight. :) xx

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magicly_rose in reply to Agora1

thanks i will <3

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magicly_rose

thanks. getting yelled at wouldn't be the best thing rn but i appreciate the sentiment

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magicly_rose

thanks. ig my body's just shutting down a little to minimize the feelings

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magicly_rose

thanks <3 i guess i just need opinions and stuff. idk. i can't stop saying that this is just a lot. don't know if its worse than its ever been so that's why i haven't said it, but its almost too much to handle.

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magicly_rose

heh thanks. i've heard its okay so many times but my head kind of doesn't want to believe it. i don't know what's going to happen any time soon and it's scary

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magicly_rose

thanks. i'm just scared is all. i'm not in danger if you're worried about that. just.. a lot of stuff i can't control

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magicly_rose

that's true. but i was going to add that actually, its kind of all in my hands and i'm scared to screw up

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magicly_rose

it kind of is a big deal if i screw up. it kind of determines the rest of my life until i'm 18

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i know its not technically the end of my world. lemme pm you

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magicly_rose in reply to magicly_rose

if you let me, anyways

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