Having a hard day

[Bookmage98]

It's been rough today, it feels like my mind keeps jumping from one problem to another. It's hard to feel happy about anything and sometimes it feels like I'll never be happy again. I keep thinking how can I fight against this when I feel so terrible? I can't even look forward to after this is over because all I see is more anxiety, it feels like there's no end. My parents keep telling me to be grateful with what I have, but everything feels like a problem rather than something to be grateful for.

[Shnookie]

Hi I'm Shnookie. Sorry U had such a rough day. With COVID everything feels exaggerated. May I ask, do you see a therapist or take any anti-anxiety medications that might help ease some of your tension. Though your parents mean well, presuming U have a roof over your head, food in your house and perhaps being ready 4 the holidays, U still have your own angst. With time, and hopefully a better 2021 things should be getting a little better. with the vaccines coming out and hopefully lowering of the rate of COVID there should be a better feeling. But in the mean time U need to take care of yourself. U can learn cognitive thinking which is very helpful and lessens the need to catastrophize and break down thoughts so they R easier to deal with. There is meditation, listening to music U enjoy and exercising. Even with all of this we still have lousy days. I'm 62 and truth be known often know that back is up against the wall. I'm quarantined and took a COVID test, because someone came into my building and had COVID. It's not fun even to be able to go out to the market. There R other challenging issues facing me as well. I work and barely make any money and need to find another job and need to move out of my apartment where I have lived for 23 years. I still know that I need to push on with my life. I dig deep into myself and think of my father who was a child holocaust survivor. I think if he could get thru hell like that I can somehow get thru this hellacious pandemic. I know this is a dramatic example but this is my real life. U R lucky that U found this group. We support each other and try to give each other good advice, comfort and compassion. I'm always here 4 U and am giving U a virtual hug. U will get thru this, but need to reach out to others such as therapists, psychiatric social workers who will teach U the tools U need. U R also lucky that U have the love of your parents. Have a happy holiday and easier 2021.

Hugs Shnookie

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I found this quote:. Let everything happen to youBeauty and terror

Just keep going

No feeling is final

Rainer Maria Rilke