Living in fear

[LordKnowsImTrying]

My sisters unexpected death has given me so much anxiety. We really don’t know when our last day is. Is it normal to stop caring about things that once used to bother you, like people’s behavior? I’m ready to let go of anyone who doesn’t bring me joy at this time in my life. I’m tired of emotional rollercoasters, wishy washy behavior. I’m tired.

[Hidden]

I’m so sorry about the loss of your sister. A sudden death is such a shock that can take us places we least expected.

[Marysblue]

Sorry for your loss. I've heard it said everyone grieves differently. Take care of yourself during this difficult time.

[Hidden]

I’m so terribly sorry for your loss. I understand sibling loss, as I lost my brother unexpectedly years ago.

There’s no “official” way to grieve. Everyone is different.

You’re absolutely allowed to let go of whatever doesn’t bring you joy. Remember that you have to take care of yourself too.

Love, light, and hugs to you. 💜

[13ga]

sorry to hear about losing your sister. a loss is never easy; but in these times its 10x harder.

as for not caring about things... this doesn't sound abnormal to me in any way - especially while you're grieving.

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please be aware, that this may be a sign of depression; which again, in these times, is so much more common.

other signs of depression may be - repeated difficulty sleeping; sleeping much longer than usual; not wanting to get out of bed; loss of appetite. there are others, but those are some of the most common.

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if you think you may be suffering from depression, don't be afraid to ask for help, or seek professional help.

besides getting peer information from HU; you can find other resources at nami.org

[hypercat54]

I am so sorry for your sister's death, please accept my sincere condolences.Yes what you are going through is totally normal. I first experienced it with the loss of a very good friend years ago and reinforced by my parent's deaths. It is the realisation of how short time is and how quickly a treasured life can be cut short. Things that seemed important before don't seem so afterwards and you can't be bothered with crap anymore.

A friend of mine recently went through this and had the exact same feeling. It teaches you to live more in the present and whilst not totally ignoring the future at least it's not so important any more. There are lots of things in life which are important and equally lots that aren't and you become more aware of them after a sad loss.

Accept the changes in yourself and use them in a positive way. Do a stocktake of your life and recognise your priorities may change for the better.