I am drinking lots of water
I’m cleaning so I am doing something about the anxiety of not having the house clean for Christmas guests
I did strengthening exercises
I am balancing people time and alone time
I am having a phone session with my psychiatrist
Starrlight, I am trying to drink lots of water but not trying hard enough.
Have to do a better job with something so important (doctor's orders)
Thanks for the reminder 
xx
Cheers 🥂
Wow. So much. That's great.
How are you doing?
Sweet dear Starrlight, thank you for asking. I wish I had better to say. Let me repeat, I am happy that you are making it through a better period. You deserve it.
Me:
Multiple sedatives to calm down enough to go to bed -- last night at 2 a.m.
Melatonin + drugs = 3 hours (maximum) sleep.
Drag myself out of bed with echoes of all my yesterday's, threats and violence, that play and play in my mind. The needle is stuck in one groove. Lay in bed, take a sedative... to face getting out of bed without a breakdown.
Hear the clock ticking down in my head as the drug wears off, then pop another to make it through another few hours. Waiting for a call-back from my therapist that likely won't happen. Vodka waiting in the wings. Maybe not. Maybe.
This is why I don't visit my friends here more often. I haven't got better to share. But I always read about my friends here, and wish you all so well.
Hope tomorrow is better for you.
Wonderful screen name. Mine could use more optimism, but...
I didn’t know you were struggling the amount that you are. I want to be here for you. Anytime I’ll be here for you. Where are the threats and violence coming from? The past or present? Are you in danger?
Hi Starrlight,
Yes. I am in danger. No, it is not new. Very longstanding, but getting much worse over time. I have sought help, but it is nowhere to be found. Apparently there is nothing to be done. I am ashamed to have shared a hopeless situation here. So many here are hurt and struggling. I do not want to be an emotional sinkhole dragging people down. I don't comment for long periods because I have nothing uplifting to say. I hurt. Always. I can't find a way out. Thank you for listening.
I want to keep listening. I can be here for you. Please if it helps, please share more. Is someone physically emotionally or sexually hurting you or all of them? You feel like you have no out? Things change. Miracles happen
I don't know if anything helps. I am not religious, I do not believe in miracles. If you want to listen, please PM me. I am not allowed to PM anyone. It's up to you. You do help, daily, as I observe your strength and talent and determination. I used to think I was brave and talented. It's gone, all gone. I am old, sick, and hopeless. I get scared sometimes that it is stalking, watching someone's posts but not responding. I don't want to think that, but everything is dark.
❤️
I'm also cleaning. And I'm crocheting which relaxes me.
Nice SmileLots I think I’ll put on music while I clean.
What are you crocheting?
My friend asked me to make him a balaclava for Christmas. It's like a ski mask.
Awesome 😎
Thank you for asking how I’m taking care of myself is by playing with my brother and talking to my mom and laughing with her 😊 i do have a sister who is younger than me but she has lots of homework to do i am also watching funny videos ❤️
Awesome Hb!
I'm writing an essay about bipolar disorder, getting down some ideas that have been bothering me but never consciously addressed. So far, it's damned gloomy. I can't think of any way to give it a happy ending.
Oh nice! Having hope could be a happy ending or things finally starting to come together. I have bipolar Do you have it?
Yes, I do. There's probably a happy ending, overall, but the problems I write about, ruining people's impressions of you due to mood swings, are not easily solved. I think ultimately ... We'll, I don't know. I haven't solved that problem, yet.
Me either
Getting thoughts down is a form of Journaling or essay as you say. I just start writing no matter what comes into my head, just keep writing those random thoughts....I found an old journal on my computer and it was an eye opener as to what I no longer feel because of meds.
I asked for help 😊
I'm very fiercely independent and stubborn, so I rarely ask for assistance (even when I know I need it). But today, I gave it a try. It worked out well and my body was grateful because I didn't over-exert myself for once.
That’s huge CJasmin! Good job asking for help! I wish I was more independent like you.
Thank you! We need to find the balance don't we? Having the confidence/strength to do some things independently, while still being able to ask for assistance when we need it. I'm still learning how to do both 😊
In what ways have I tried taking care of myself recently?
*by letting go of perfectionism
*by lowering expectations I have placed upon myself and others
*by taking time to do something that brings me joy
*by staying connected with family and friends
*by remembering to be patient with myself and others
*by practicing mindfulness and
meditation
*by listening to my favorite music and coloring with my favorite colors
*by journaling my thoughts and feelings not keeping them to myself
*by using tele-health to meet with my therapist weekly
*by wearing my Fitbit to track: sleep, diet, exercise, hydration, heart rate, weight, body temp, oxygen saturation, and more
💙
Amazing! Great job!!! 😊 I’m happy for you that you are able to do all of that.
had physio at 8.30am so being delicate with my body till later.
What’s physio? Physical therapy? What happened?
yeah physiotherapy just because of long term pain.
Take care. Are you celebrating the coming up holidays?
Keep crushing it starlight depression is no match for you!
Awww thanks Pittiedad! How are you doing? Any Christmas plans?
Sounds like you're doing everything right to me. The water thingy is hard but doable. I fill a large container of water every morning.. I leave it on the kitchen counter where I can see it. A glass everytime I see it throughout the day. Dr. Prescribed this for me b/c I was walking funny and holding onto walls whenever I lost my balance...is working just fine.
Sounds like a good, productive day! Trying with the water myself... Finishing out the school semester with online finals, so I can give my messy house back some attention
I am treating myself to a cup of coffee maybe two. I walked the dog and visited with my favorite neighbor. I am checking in with this support group instead of complaining to others who can not do any thing about my problems.
I’m here for the same reason, to be able to have people around who can understand. I’m feeling scared right now,... if the unknown sort of I guess, just a really unsettled
I love people and have some amazing friends but I hate talking to them when I'm down. They are always kind, but afterwards I feel embarassed that I was so needy. I know they care but secretly I guess my mind thinks if the see me vulnerable they won't see me the same. I am glad I found this site so I can get this out of my head. Thanks to you all🙂
It’s okay to be vulnerable. Some of the most very beautiful people are the most vulnerable. Blessings to you JustChristie I’m glad you can let feelings out here.
Taking care of things
How are you practising self care these days?
What are you craving today?