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[oldtimer159]

Does it feel like everything is hard? Even the normal everyday stuff people do with ease takes a lot of effort. It's like moving through molasses. You feel good, make some progress, and then fall lower than you were before.

[langedechu]

it's normal to have lows and highs. one thing that can help is finding something or even just a moment that you enjoyed. think about it and you'll start to notice more and more things that make you happy - cherish those memories and it will all be okay. love, lange

[oldtimer159 in reply to langedechu]

Did that. But that strategy didn't last. Found another one and didn't last. It's a cycle like this from many years now. But one can hope and keep trying right. It's life's reality. Unfair but our burden to bear. Warriors.

[Marysblue]

Yes, I see how much people with no depression get done and it amazes me. It is a burden most people don't understand,

[oldtimer159 in reply to Marysblue]

It feels good and not alone when someone understands. Thanks.

[leonids]

It feels sometimes to me like people without depression read some life instruction manual that I've never gotten my hands on. How do they know how not to feel this way?

Do you ever find yourself amazed that you've managed to hang on this long when just getting yourself into the shower can feel impossible?

[oldtimer159 in reply to leonids]

Definitely amazed. Nearly 7 years now... I'm shocked I've made it this far. Guess I've been lucky that way. Having good friends helped. Without them I wouldn't be alive right now.

[Hidden in reply to leonids]

Yes, in fact it happens a lot. I really don’t know if I’ve ever had a lot of energy and it’s all I can do is shower a few times a week. I just do the best I can and not try to judge myself too harshly

[Hidden in reply to leonids]

Yes I have. I wonder why it still happens even after the meds I take! I blame some of it on the cold winter and that I’m retired. Love to stay in bed and read.

[FearIsALiar]

I’ve been thinking about this a lot too lately. I feel like I have to try a lot harder than most when it comes to almost everything.

[Hidden]

Yes, I keep putting things off cause they will probably hurt my back as an excuse for not doing some yard clean up. Some days I just set inside on the sofa watching tv

[Hidden]

Yeah this has sent me spiraling before. I do the dumb thing of compare myself to others and get so bogged down by looking at how easy they have it that I end up thinking I am worthless or hopeless because everything seems 1000 times harder for me. It's a vicious cycle