What happened to my brain?

[TheEmptyNest]

I've been working on recovering from a traumatic experience for more than a year now. I try really hard to pretend that everything is fine... particularly at work... but I just feel dumb now. I never know what to say... it's like the cat always has my tongue... and I just have no creative ideas anymore. It's really bothering me. Is it medication? (I'm on three!) or is it just residual depression/ anxiety? If anyone has any ideas, I would love to hear what you think! I was really successful at work before this happened, and now I just feel like they're being nice for keeping me on... or that they haven't figured out yet that I've lost all my brain cells!

I always loved working .... It was such a big part of who I am, but now I wish that I could win the lottery so that I could do nothing for awhile. I don't want to be the girl who WAS good at something... until she wasn't.

[Agora1]

Hi EmptyNest, you haven't lost your brain cells. They are just on "dimmer switch" because

of the medications which you need. Plus I'm sure you are still recovering from a traumatic experience. xx

[TheEmptyNest in reply to Agora1]

Thank you for that! It feels good to think that I'll become who I once was again!

[Hidden]

Pretending that everything is fine can be exhausting. I think I had "smiling depression" for some time, possibly years, and I felt like I was leading a double life. Now I just value sincerity. Personally, I would rather be honest and make the best of things than pretend. Maybe you just need this time for recovery, and remember being less than brilliant is not a crime! Don't be too hard on yourself.

[TheEmptyNest in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for your kind words!