Does life matter?

[Chris_C]

I have lost all my friends, it feel like my family hates me. My mom literally said I ruined Christmas. I am completely lost and broken. I am even having some pretty bad thoughts. I don’t know what to do. The things that used to cheer me up hasn’t been able to lately, like playing guitar and music from certain artists

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Hey Chris, yeah life matters. Sometimes you've just gotta believe, and hang in there.As others have said on here, you never know who your life might touch. Maybe the influence of your example to keep going even when it gets hard will be important in another person's life someday.

Depression can do that, take the joy out of things. I enjoy playing the piano, but for some time when the depression was bad, I couldn't even look at the piano. It was just a temporary thing though. I hope you can get back to your guitar soon.

Do you have friends or a therapist you can open up with about the dark thoughts?

[FearIsALiar]

Life does matter. Life is sucks sometimes but we never were promised an easy life...

My mom has blamed me for her and my dad never getting along because I cause all the issues in my house..it makes me feel so shitty.

I’m sorry you’re dealing with this. I know how it feels. I feel like I definitely snap when I’m upset or angry and it makes everything worse but my mom does the same thing and I think that’s who I learned it from. I just need OUT of this house.

[marydoll1963]

maybe its time to really look at your problems and issues one at a time

what do you want and what are the problems your having and what can you do to make things better

i do this i imagine a friend has come with a problem what advice would i give them

try it see what happens

wishing you well

[Pagesofwords]

I'm so sorry how hard it is right now, Chris. Do you still live at home with your parents? I think it's mean to say you "ruined Christmas." There are a lot of things wrong in the world right now, especially related to the pandemic--and none of them were caused by you. Christmas isn't "ruined." I hope that you have someone safe to confide in and who will help you find hope. Do you have a doctor, therapist, pastor, or caring relative to talk to? I have benefited a great deal through therapy and medication for my depression. Still--it gets really hard sometimes. I care about you. I have endured low moods for over 35 years. They can and will lift. Hang in there! God bless you.

[JJanvier]

Chris, I hope you're doing well today.

I don't know of this reply is too late to make a difference to you, or even if it will even get read at all, but I had to reply as maybe it will help.

Does life matter? Yes.

Does it sometimes seem like it doesn't? Yes.

Does everyone feel like this sometimes? Yes.

Life moves in peaks and troughs. You don't know you were on a peak until you're heading down to a trough, and you don't know you were in a trough until heading back up again.

You might be in a trough right now, but you have been in one before and you got out of that one, so you will get out of this one too.

Your love of music and playing your guitar will return and when it does, you won't be able to put it down again. Disinterest in things in nor.al, no matter how much you loved them before. Depression and anxiety can act as a filter, it doesn't remove these things but it makes them appear differently to you.

I've just started taking antidepressants for the first time in my life, I'm 33 I live in Manchester, UK and things aren't great at the moment.

My father just passed away, I'm moving house and my partner is pregnant with our first child, not to mention the effects of COVID. Its a stressful time and I felt really down and anxious, most of the time. This is my trough.

You need to do something practical about your situation, phone your GP or doctor and explain how you are feeling. The first step is the hardest, but its only a phone call and then when things start moving it'll get easier and easier.

If you can't speak to your parents about it, then speak to someone you trust about it. They will support you and help you.

So many people go through what you're going through, you're not alone and others have paved the way forward because they've felt this way and got better too. So it'll be easier for you, so don't worry.

Contact a GP and you'll soon be looking back down at this trough and realize that's all it was. You'll be on the way back to your peak, with your guitar in your hand and a smile on your face.

Good luck

J x