Can anyone help me understand what’s wrong with me

[Anna_and_Ollie]

Lately I have been feeling very depressed and my anxiety has been controlling my life. I’m in nursing school and I can’t concentrate anymore, my grades are suffering. I have never been a drinker but lately I’m getting wasted and throwing up atleast twice a week. I don’t even want to be alone because I’m worried about my own thoughts. I don’t have anyone I can talk to who understands how I feel and it’s making me feel very lonely. Instead of living my life I feel like I’m watching through a window as someone else does it for me.

I really just need a hug

[kenster1]

hi welcome aboard I think loneliness is hitting us just now even ones like me who has a family.drinking will just make things worse not just for your health but for your grades the fact your being sick regular is your body overdoing it.can you speak to someone you trust or even contact AA but please don`t let it take over your life.

[Secret4706]

Hi welcome to the group. You will find so many lovely people on here who will help you through. Life is pretty shitty for everyone atm you are not alone. Don't be afraid to be honest and get it out. ❤️

[Hidden]

You asked what’s wrong with me? Are you overwhelmed with school, anything in your life stressing you to the max? What’s the trigger of your anxiety?

Sounds like binge drinking to try and escape? Is this close?

I’d reccomend hanging around friends that you can lean on, someone you trust and try to talk about what you are going through. Alcohol in excess truly only makes matters worse. This increases anxiety while it may seem to help it as your getting drunk...then the hangovers and being ill only makes you feel physically worse, tack on the mental aspect the next day after drinking, the problems are still there when the hangover is gone. You can talk here, it’s a safe place, no judgements. Take care. 🌺💜

[Anna_and_Ollie in reply to Hidden]

I am overwhelmed with school. I feel like I don’t have time to mentally focus in on me and how to help myself. I am using drinking as an escape because at this point I don’t want to mentally Or emotionally here at all. I know alcohol makes things worse and I’ve always been an advocate against it which is why I realized it was time for me to reach out to others. So far I’m loving all of the positive feedback it has already made an impact and I’m grateful ❤️🥰

[Hidden]

Hey hun, you're not alone there is so many people out here going through what you're going through. It's a very difficult time right now in the world for many of us. Nothing is wrong with you you're just lonely and intruded with your thoughts. I think you just need someone to talk to and show you some love. Feel free to chat me if you'd like, you always have support, love, and someone to talk to! stay strong! you got this!!

[endofsorrowislove]

Hi Anna, as I read your post. I kinda find myself somewhat stuck in the same fashion. It has nothing to do with you, I think. But I guess part of the main reason is that you are running away from your anxiety, just like we usually do. You see, drinking and other forms of addictions are just way that our brain tries to numb the feeling, to distract ourselves, temporarily from the anxiety that we have. In the end, we can't run away forever to resolve our problem. We gotta face it. But hey, we're not always strong and brave right?! If you need a friend to talk to, I'm all ears!

Givin' you an invisible hug!

[MYsoulmind]

Many hugs to you my friend nursing school is difficult. Hang on tight you can do it. Yes, I agree with Kenster1 drinking, nicotine, caffeine, and drugs will only spiral your thoughts. Hows your spiritual health? I know you mentioned you need a hug. HUGS.

[Anna_and_Ollie in reply to MYsoulmind]

I recently got up and drove in the middle of the night across multiple states to visit the mountains. I felt that was a very spiritual experience and I’m also generally a very uplifting person myself.

[healthyone11]

i wish i was where you are so i can give you a hug!