Amazing...I found others!

[soapmak3r]

New to the group. I first want to say that I am thankful to have found others in similar situations. My family keeps mental health on the sidelines or they notice it like the background music from a car passing by...its there but if you do not focus on it it will soon disappear. Being an adult and facing the world it has been an upheaval of emotions. Going from a small town and being the best I can be in grades and studies...(not the best but as much as I could be) and entering the military...I feel I never got to evolve mentally from being a perfectionist and it turned it to a deep depression and anxiety disorder. I had trich as a child and thought I grew out of it. Now in my 30s here it is again. Now a days women use makeup for their eyebrows and fake eyelashes but back in the day we did not. hahaha. They had to have gotten the idea from one of us. But being in a meticulous job and pushing myself...I met the complete opposite of me in my partner. He is outgoing, social butterfly, no procrastination and completes projects out of the park. Seeing things in black and white, having PTSD from the things you get put through in the military (not just the battlefield) , not feeling like your doing enough...I do not have much friends because of it. I try to put myself out there...I want to join groups. But do you ever feel like they do not want you a part of their inner circle? I am a social butterfly and gift giver when I open up. I wish I would be given the chance to show this to people but I feel they like to attack my weaknesses and kick me when I am down. I do not like feeling that I am holding my partner back. It is just really nice to see that there is a community of people who have similar problems and I do not have to feel like I am the only one anymore.

[rsacdoolittle]

Welcome home, soapmak3r!

[soapmak3r in reply to rsacdoolittle]

thank you. it is nice to be accepted for who you are and not what you can offer.

[Myre]

Welcome to the You aren't alone ❤️

[Hidden]

Yes, I have felt alot of the emotions you are feeling. It is important to know that when you feel like someone doesnt want you apart of their group it is just fear talking. Fear of rejection....