Anxiety etc that is actually fall out....

[jackiesj]

I have come to realize that those who abuse even in our own homes, we dont just "handle it".Its internal and they fling of its composition hits our soul.I also know that Christians who abuse dont hit physically but mentally so nothing shows.

How we deal with this is really the message.Some of us cant divorce, leave etc.Why dont you just get out? Money, is a factor, noone to help another, no rent that wont require alot....and yes hotel is an option.Kindness of others.Lasts only a week.If I had my body...well alot of you understand.....those who dont...pray.

[CowgirlPrincess]

Amen! You are so right. Many of us suffer in silence. We are emotionally abused in our own homes, however, we say nothing to anyone outside of our home for fear of others looking down on us, or telling us we are weak for staying in the relationship, shame, fear of being treated even worse if word gets back to our abuser we are talking about them, not having the means to leave and, or in my case not believing in divorce.

We internalize our pain, fear, loneliness, anger and in doing so our anxiety becomes unbearable, at least for me it does.

I was taught at an early age to just smile and never show how I was truly feeling on the inside. I am gradually learning to open up a bit and show my feelings, but it is so hard to do.

Those of us who are Christians are taught to control our anger, honor our husbands who are usually our abusers. We are taught to show compassion and love to others and this is also very hard to do when you are being abused. It also creates more anxiety in us as we try to live our lives as we have been taught, yet we have so much internal anger.

I have only found 2 therapists in my life time who have actually helped me and sadly we moved from the area where they are. Plus I can't afford therapy so my husband says.

When I go to therapy and I have to pay for it our of my own pocket my husband becomes angry and it's just another thing that sets him off.

It's not like we can't really afford it, it's that he doesn't believe in it and I also think he doesn't like the fact I'm telling someone what is going on in our home. Of course he doesn't want to look bad.

I pray for all of you out there who are suffering in silence and those who are not that you may find the will power to be able to talk to someone and get the help you need and away from the abuse.

Emotional abuse can be as bad as physical abuse, people just can't see it.

I'm sorry for rambling and if some of this doesn't make sense. The above post caught my eye and really got me thinking.