Well, I'm 50 and have had anxiety since i was a child. Beginning in my 30's i started trying to fight my nature (my natural state of being is anxious) with therapy and medications. the therapy and drugs proved to be of no use (side affects of medications caused me to stop taking them) . I feel like i just need to be accepting of who i am and just trudge through life as that is what is meant for me - there's just no fighting it. Looking for others who's nature is the same and have learned how to just live with it and willing to share those tips with me.
I have to admit i think of performing suicide a lot, I'm just not brave enough to perform it yet, but i will in the future. Maybe learning how to accept my condition will quiet these thoughts? I've been browsing a couple pro-suicide sites, considering getting support there to help me be brave and end it all.