Hi everyone! Im going to be completely blunt and honest about something i am going through at this moment in time. I am still pretty in this journey of recovery. I have not had a drop of alcohol in over 6 months now. That being said, last year was the first time in my life i was ever arrested and was in jail. Shockingly, prior to that, I have never even so much had a speeding ticket. Alcohol and me started to have a terrible relationship. My newly husband and i got into a brawl in our hotel room and well the cops were called. I was terrified and kept trying to tell him i loved him as he was being taken away. Against being told not to. But everything seems to be ok when youre drunk right? Anyway i ended up being taken away and the charges are criminal mischief, obstruction of justice and public drunkeness. All misdemeanors. Anyway, back in february they gave me a small deal of me to pay 400 bucks and it would be done and over with. Well i finally got a job, and things were looking up. Then i was let go from the project, they let go all the temps. Because of Covid. Everything was locked down and they dont allow payments online. Its cash or money order. We were on one income, and needed that money. They pushed the date later because they were starting to open up. Couldnt get the money in time, and the judge brought back those charges. So now i have an arraignment date in november. And then a pre trial date, so for some odd reason, this might go to trial. I am so terrified and this has increased my anxiety and depression tenfold. Im terrified that because i was not able to pay, they are going to send be back to jail. My husband, whom has completely changed his life around btw and is doing great for his family, himself and in his own recovery... keeps telling me there is no way im going back. Most likely probation and fines. But i cant get it out of my head. im the type of person whom always expects the worst. Like i said no record at all prior to this. I just wish i could calm myself and get out of this dark part of my life right now. If you read this all thank you for sticking around, im sorry this was so lengthy, but i had to get this off my chest.
Im sorry this is so long, i am lost - Anxiety and Depre...
Im sorry this is so long, i am lost
Welcome!🙋♀️
Don't apologize. Does it feel good to get it out? I hope things work out for the best. Covid-19 has really messed everyone up. It's too bad that the courts aren't showing any leniency (did I read that correctly)?
It actually helped a little bit more. Unfortunately it is like a big dark cloud looming over me at the moment, till i know what is actually going to happen. Yes, you did read that correctly. 400 bucks to a judge is nothing, whereas working families thats everything, ya know? Thank you for taking the time to read everything.
I meant the part about the judge giving you more time to come up with the money in light of the situation. This might sound very naive, but to not show due date lieniency in this pandemic seems hardly fair, especially since you just lost your job (sorry about that, btw). I mean, that part was beyond your control, right? Is family able to help with the money part?
You're welcome🙂
Oh my apologies. And very much beyond my control. And especially during the lockdown it was not very easy finding a new one. So it was just one income. Both my parents are gone and my step dad and my mother in law are both on a fixed income. Other than that, family is not much of an option. Unfortunately.
I have since found a job
No sweat; it's cool😎
You found a job?!! That's AWESOME! Nice work👍👍👍👍
So awfully sorry to hear about your folks.
Hope the judge will hear you out and be lenient in light of COVID. Hiring legal council would be wise. It adds to the cost, but a lawyer with experience with the judge and how she/he rules could get this knocked back down to paying a fine. Might can get charges dropped.
The waiting and not knowing my fate would have my anxiety at the highest level too. Hope this works out in your favor.
Have you considered getting a gofundme account or something like that to give others the opportunity to help you raise the money?
actually no... but thank you for the idea!!
Hopefully you are going to AA for your alcoholism. And if so, hopefully you’ve got a sponsor and support system. Your case sounds like a normal state of affairs for one of us alkies. When I drink, I end up fighting with cops too.
I know you’re anxious about what may happen but you’ll get through it. Drinking won’t help. Reach out to your people. And if you’re not in AA, might I suggest getting there. You need help to get you through this, no matter what the outcome.
Hang in there.
Thank you so much, and yes i have started going to AA!
Then you’ll get all the support you need. They won’t steer you wrong. Unfortunately I had to pay the consequences of my drinking. No matter what they were. But as long as I was working my program things went as well as could be if I wasn’t drinking. Again, hang in there a day at a time.
Going to court can be beneficial, especially if you can bring proof that you are now employed and in recovery. Even though not paying the fine is against you, going to your scheduled court dates are usually the way to resolve things such as payment plans and so forth. Any proof you reached out during the time before you were overdue to pay or proof of how covid effected you would be super beneficial. In my experience a court date for past due fines usually aren't to send you straight back to jail it's to offer you options pay in full set up a payment plan with court so on. It'll ultimately be a relief to know exactly how to get it dealt with.
Omg that helped me more than you know. Thank you so much
Of course! It's terrible just wondering and wondering, I hope your date is soon. I've never had my own like "counsel" either still been pretty much in and out with a plan for resolution. I wish the best for you!
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