Numb and pain

[Lixus]

I think I'm writing too much lately, but I don't know what else I can do... Emptyness, numbness and pain are drowning me, I'm ok one time and then, suddenly I start feeling hopeless, worthless, and I stop seeing the point of keep walking this road, is not that I'm tired is just I'm feeling new things and I don't have any clue about how to deal with it. I don't know what to do, I don't know how to express myself, everyday seems like a hole where I keep falling in without seeing the end nor the beginning

[Hidden]

There is no such thing as writing too much

Writing things down can be a very useful processing tool. I always benefit from seeing my thoughts on paper.

[Otaku12]

Is there one thing in your life that you are truly passionate about and that you enjoy even when you are feeling empty? Mine is anime/manga, no matter how depressed, anxious, or empty I feel I always enjoy watching/reading. Sometimes it is literally the only thing that keeps me going. I'll feel tired of struggling with life but then I'll remember I have a good show to finish and I'm like "Ok I can keep going".

Anime has actually helped me with my emotions too. I'm sad quite a bit of the time and I tend to hold it all in, but then I'll watch a really sad show and ball my eyes out and feel so much better. I guess I'm suggesting finding some sort of creative medium (books, movies, shows, art, music, poetry) that is full of emotions and that will let you express your emotions more. I find if I have a reason to be sad, angry, happy, etc. because of something I'm reading or watching, then I feel like I can express my emotions easier and I understand them better since I know why I'm crying (a character I liked died) or why I'm laughing (a character is being absolutely ridiculous).

I have no idea if any of this makes sense or if it's helpful, but I hope you find a way to not feel so empty.

[Lixus in reply to Otaku12]

I watch and read anlme/manga sometimes too but I guess the only thing I always enjoy doing is music (listening and playing instruments) but sometimes I don't feel like doing them either and right now I'm at the university so I don't have time to play instruments