The Problem is not my life now , This Is A Life Ive Prayed For , I wished For I Wanted So Bad , The Problem is Those Scars Inside , Those Brusese Inside Thats Not Going Anyway , Its My Dark Personality Caused By My Used To Be Dark Life , Abuisive People , bullies , Shame , Mistakes, Fear is Always around , I Never Know How To Forgive Someone For Making Me Feel Like Nothing And Worthless , I Never Know How To Forgive Someone Who used To Beat Me And Yell At me And Reminds Me Of How Much I Shouldnt be here in this world , I Dont Know How , I Dont Know How To Live Or Enjoying Life When At Any Moment Those Screams Could Come Back In A heartbeat , I Dont Know How To Rest Without Feeling I Dont Deserve It , I Dont Know How To Work Because Someone Used To Tell Me How Stupid Iam And how Useless I am , I Dont Trust Anything I Do Because Someone Used To Tell Me Everything I do Is Wrong , I dont have any intrest in human beings Because They Always Hurtfull , They Always Hate Me , I Have The Life I Wanted But I Don Feel It Because I Dont Know How To Be Happy , I dont Know How To Forgive That person So I Can Actually Know Who I Am .. I Dont Love Myself , I Dont Understand anything , I Never Knew Who The Hell am I , I Dont Have A Purpose And I Push People Away , And Sadness Wont do anything or change anything that happened or could happen or will happen , I Have No Hope No Intrests And no hobbies No Beliefs .. I Dont Know What else to say but .. Thank you for reading.
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Reading this hit me hard. When it made me realize I say I forgive those people that beat me and mentally screwed me in my head for 37 years. But did I really? No its still there and always will be. And I push everyone away. And nobody gets it i protect myself before I smell any fear of getting hurt
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