Waiting to feel good?

[FeelSoBadAboutMyself]

Feel like I wait to feel good before I do something good for myself. Or I start doing good, then feel good and I expect it to carry on. When it doesnt then I stop as I get dissapointed. Sometimes I even feel better and then stop doing whatever good thing I did because I foolishly think 'Im doin ok now'.

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I was thinking that same thing yesterday! I started a walking group and have been feeling good this week. I told myself "Now, you just keep it up, don't get sucked down the rabbit hole again!" Because in the past I get these great starts and then when the world spins out of control I lose my fragile equilibrium again. Nobody's perfect. The important thing is for me to keep adjusting my trajectory as needed. As of joining this group, I am building in some additional safeguards for myself to daily do things to keep me engaged and "on track." One of which is sharing and responding online. I heard a story on the news about a woman who has "four pillars" of health and it really made sense to me. She says that each day she tries to do something good for herself in the "physical, mental, emotional/spiritual and social" areas of life. I liked that. I expect that at some point I will unavoidably fall back into the "shit zone" as that is part of struggling with depression and will most likely always be part of my life. It is good to reach out to others for help. When we feel bad about ourselves, it is so hard to do that, but it is the most important thing to do. Don't give up! Keep talking...

[FeelSoBadAboutMyself in reply to Hidden]

I liked that advice alot especially aboit working on the 4 pillars. Thank you.

[Hidden in reply to FeelSoBadAboutMyself]

Thanks, but I wouldn't dare give anyone advice lol. I am just sharing what I am currently doing to keep myself from falling into the black abyss. My Uncle committed suicide last month and it really scared me. I am taking an online free webinar this weekend to see if I can learn some prevention tips to try to help people around me that might be prone to suicide. Honestly, I always feel with deep depression like it could be an issue for almost anyone who gets stuck in that horrible place. It is like getting attacked by "Dementors" if you are a Harry Potter fan, you know? Gotta fight those shadow monsters!

[FeelSoBadAboutMyself in reply to Hidden]

Im really sorry to hear you lost your uncle to suicide. Its so good that you want to help others to lead a happier life though. I think we can all have an impact on one another and help one another. Thank you for reminding me of that.