Reaching out to the past (mistake?)

[SilentSinger55]

Yesturday, I was going through some of my old things and I found a paper with contact information for some people I met in a residential treatment facility about a year and a half ago. I don't have Instagram or Facebook and my parents closely monitor who I'm calling/texting so there was only one person I could contact and that was through email. So, this morning I sent her a short email asking her if she remembered me and how she was doing. Now I'm kind of freaking out because I knew her at a time when I was not a very good person. I will admit, I was a bit of a bully back then. I was also very loud and energetic but not in a good way. I was attention seeking and would purposely get in trouble almost every day. I am very much a different person now and everyone around me can see it. I am very ashamed of how I acted back then but I would like to talk to this girl. When I was in this facility, although I was reckless and chaotic, she was always there for me. She acted like my older sister and would try to talk me out of doing the stupid things I did. Although it didn't always work, I remember how much it meant to me and it still does mean a lot. I remember how gentle and kind she was to everyone and everything around her. But I still don't know if I should reach out to her or if she'll even want to talk to me. What do you guys think?

[Missy_D]

Give her a chance, you have sent the email now all you can do is wait. Given the circumstances of where you actually met, I am sure she will make allowances to your behaviour and hopefully realises that if you are home now that you are going to be a different (and better) person than back then. See if she replies, and if she doesn't don't get hung up on it or make it personal just remember you tried and she doesn't want to correspond.