My mind isn't in the game

[AK0424]

I thought I was doing ok. No not great, but dealing. After talking with a friend tonite, I realized I'm not into what I used to be. It's probably my depression. But when I think about doing the things that usually excite me, I get upset with myself. Why am I like this? I feel like a disappointment, to myself and others. I hate it. But all I want to do is curl up in a ball and block it all out. I hate feeling like this. I try to explain myself but I feel like no one understands which makes me feel even more like a disappointment. Am I crazy?

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Hi sorry your feeling this way, your not crazy, no, you are depressed. Depression robs you of the appreciation sometimes, it is being fed by something and in turn then attacks self image/esteem. I personally find looking for the feeder part and sorting that, then allows me to start appreciating the things again. It depends on what it is also, as sometimes we ourselves change and the things we used to enjoy just don't cut it any longer. I hope this helps and you get to a better place soon. Take care.