Hi! I am new here!

Hey my name is Overthinker. That basically sums everything up right. Well sure, I overthink but it tends to be more than that. Im a fighter, is what I tell myself. I want to lay in bed, but not draw attention to myself. I don't want to work, but want to go places in life. I want to do the easy thing; sit back, disappear, let my inner thoughts take me, stop repeating the same motions before I go to bed, when I go to the bathroom, when I leave a room. But those things make me feel whole. Even if I am my own friend. I have always been there for me. Maybe not always nice, but I always understand. I guess what I am saying is, the easy thing isn't always best so I try my hardest to keep fighting no matter how tired I am. I have never talked to anyone about how I feel and I am a really long book. My current relationship is great and it makes me realize how "damaged" I feel. Im in a happy place and glad to still be living to see it. But then why can't I feel happy and why do I feel like this? I may never get the true answer to that, but at least this way I won't be alone anymore....even though it may still feel that way.

Thanks for reading!

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