ADD OR ADHD

Recently I was having a conversation with my sister it was about my job. So I'm trying to remember why I'm current boss has said that I seem rude while taking money from customers and I remember I told my sister...how can I be rude if I struggle to count the money when someone is talking to be at the same time I'm trying to figure out their change. So my head is going a little over the top trying to remember a time when I was "rude" but I can't. As I explain to her how difficult I find to count my money and hear what the customer is saying. I get stuck after alot when I count. My sister tells me dude its because you have ADHD. I stay quiet and pretend like I don't have that. I mean yes I remember back in elementary I was tested and all I remember they said... she is lazy and easily distracted. But after giving it some thinking maybe it is true. I just thought I was bad at math or in school. But every time I have to give a "big amount" of change back I struggle alot to keep my mind on what I'm doing. I count to myself all the time but when I really get stuck I count out loud. let's say I have to give the customer the change which is $86 it takes me a while to do it even though its not hard. When I start counting I stop and ask myself whats after 54 or something like that even though I know I answer it does take a moment for me to move on to the next number. and it gets worse when they stare at me or talk to me. I have to count the money at least 4 times. So great not only do I suffer with social anxiety, depression now let's add something else to the whole mix like ADD/ADHD. But honestly yesterday was the worst day ever. So I have asthma and anxiety

,depression and I guess ADD now combine all that with a customer recording me because he wantes change for a $100. Great right yeah that has been the worst thing that has happened to me in my job. Let's say I was always feared somebody would just start recording me and I guess all nightmares tend to come true in my life. Long story short I start hyperventilating right then and there which is just awesome 😒. Let me tell you I left like my world was closing in on me and they guy was just staring and recording. So I'm struggling for air the walls are closing in on me I feel tears about to roll down my face and the worst part was all this could have been prevented if only my boss would provide us with the right money. Let's be honest here I hate my job and yes it's on top of the list of things I regret.

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I can totally relate to your post. I get it. I feel like I was with you when I read your story.

[Dave_H]

If you haven't already, I would recommend getting formally tested for ADD. I never had it as a child, it developed in adulthood. I take medication for it every day. Medication isn't the only solution, but the possibility is there. I happen to have ADD with hyperfocus, meaning when I have to, I can really concentrate no matter what is happening around me, but that type is rare. I work with several people and I swear they have untreated ADD. Best wishes.