Hate myself and my life

[Blueradish]

I don’t know what to do with myself. I hate the person I am and where I am in life. I want to go back to school but that won’t be until fall so I’m stuck with a job I hate that is physically very tolling. I’m very emotional and I cry over the smallest things and obsess over them and I know my bf is annoyed by my constant tears. I have no real friends just my bf but now I just feel like he’s annoyed by how emotional i am.I just dont know what to do anymore I want to change but it’s so hard and I dont know where to start.

[explorerPHX]

oh my gosh ... it is like you read my mind or something. i say the exact same things - i hate myself and my life. i desperately want things to change but i feel powerless to do anything to start that change process. i don't really have any friends either, no gf, nothing. it is so frustrating and exhausting.