This is when I know an anxiety attack can hit

[Sunflowersandlight]

2 days ago I had my babies doctors appt, where he was going to get his first round of vaccines. The thought already made me anxious bc I knew he was going to be fussy so I went to pick my younger sister so she could help. I didn’t have coffee or anything bc I wanted to leave before he began to cry. On my way there I put gas and some light on the dashboard turned on. I ignored it.

The baby begs to cry and I figured he would stop, he didn’t. I pulled over and I had to feed him. He cried until he calmed.

On the way to the clinic, the oil light that need on. I called my husband to explain the issues after the car was losing power and kicking. He reprimanded me for driving the streets rather than the freeway. He said that the car was going to breakdown if I kept driving it like that. My sister heard and I was embarrassed. I decided to deal with it later.

The baby got his vaccines and we decided to take it to a friends shop 2 blocks away. The baby cried and fussed. Our friend said that the car was drivable but some part needed replacing. We hen we leave there was construction traffic and only one lane. My car begins to glitch again and turns off.

I turn my emergency’s and call my husband who wanted to argue with me about the cars issue so I just told him to give me out friend’s number. Baby is crying and the truck behind me honks at me. I begin to panic but try to stay calm. The construction workers see and push me to a restaurant parking lot.

My sister took my baby inside while I make the phone calls and wait for my husband to call back. I couldn’t even eat since I was just thinking about driving with a broken car and a baby. It was decided to take it to the shop and at the light the car turns off again. We leave our car and wait to get picked up by our parents. The baby cried and fussed.

I ended up staying at my moms until my older sister could give me a ride home. By then i was drained but my day wasn’t over. My sister had to pick up my nephew from after school prog first so we rushed there. On our way our babies cried at full blast in the middle of traffic.

We took a break at her house to eat and feed the kids. I didn’t even get the chance to vote and I got home at 8:30. When I did reach my bed I was too tired, stressed and all that I just shut down. I went to bed hungry and sad.

[courageovercomfort]

I’m so sorry you had such a rough day.