The weight is getting to be to much

[Dino1973]

I am a 43 yr old man who lays here crying. I am tired! I need some time to breath again, but scared to let it go. I have no where to turn and no relief in sight. Why is silence so comforting when I can hear the screams coming from the darkest corners of my mind?

[conquestofhappiness]

crying is a good start. I am tired too. I have the impulse to hit myself. Just let the emotion out. we will be fine sooner or later ( I hope). but at least, you know there is someone out there, like me, feeling agonizing just like you, and you are not alone.

[Hidden]

You're definitely in a distressed frame of mind. At this point I think the best thing to do is ask for help and you're doing it now. Speaking as someone who does what you do from time to time I'm glad you've asking for help. Which would you like feedback on ideas to break this cycle or just a kind earn to vent to? Asking because I want to approach you according to your comfort zone and we can go from there. If you're live right now I can reply right away. Or you can Private message me if you like.

[SirGrits]

Hey Dino, I see I'm a little late. How you holding up?

I hope it's some consolation to know that you're not alone. I hope you're getting help from a pro (like a therapist/counselor) too. I had a friend recently struggling and it took a prescription to break him out of the funk.

[sweetiepye]

Always remember , however miserable you are, you are getting something out of it. when you decide the price is too high then you can start to change,