Anxiety getting better and worse?

[Msheatherlady]

Today was a stressful day. I thought it would be fun and at times it was but it became stressful and made my already heightened anxiety higher. I took a short road trip with some family to go shopping and I felt so overwhelmed at times and when I got home I ended up having a break down cry with my grandma.

My anxiety mainly stems from my fears of life without my grandma. She’s not currently dying or planning on dying anytime soon but I know she’s not getting any younger and it’s really hard to wrap my head around. She’s probably the person I’m closest with and it’s scary to think of life without her someday. Sure I have my other family members and as much as I love them I have a hard time connecting with them. Most of them don’t understand my anxiety and will tell me to just get over it and it’s frustrating. They’ll tell me I can come to them but I fear it because I don’t think they’ll be supportive or helpful. When I’m anxious sometimes I just need someone to listen and not judge me and I feel like my family would judge me. Going back to my grandma I feel like lately my thoughts always go to negative and it’s horrible and I don’t know how to snap out of it.

I feel like lately I look at myself and I don’t know who I am anymore or how to live normally. I constantly find my mind wandering back to the anxiety which in turn makes me feel anxious. I could be fine a few minutes and then be like “oh why am I not anxious now?” And then something pops in my head to make me anxious. Does anyone else do this? Does anyone have any advice? Words of encouragement? Anything?

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Hello. Does your grandma have health issues? Any reason at all to worry?

[SuZQ154]

So sorry you are feeling like this! Holidays also bring on unexpected feelings, so this may be doubly hard right now.

A book which has been very helpful for me is "Anxious for Nothing". You might want to check it out. bit.ly/2YTJUPV It refocuses me.

Hope this helps!

[Hope1410]

I have the same thing except it’s with my mom dying. I know she won’t live forever but she’s my biggest supporter through all this. It’s like I think when she dies I’ll go off the deep end. So you’re not alone in this!