Yesterday I felt something was changing. The killing chronic fatigue was lessening and my thinking was heading back to normal and I actually enjoyed watching a sports game on TV. Is this what coming out of depression feels like, I wondered. By late evening I was feeling quite positive and made some plans for today.
When I went to bed about 11pm I decided to wait 30 minutes before taking a sleeping pill. I didn't expect I could get to sleep without it (never have), but I felt tired (in a healthy way). The next time I checked the time it was 2:30am! I had actually fallen asleep without medication. After that I was able to fall asleep again for a few hours and then intermittently until I got up.
It's the first time since my insomnia began a couple of months ago that I have been able to sleep without medication, in fact I have often not been able to sleep even after taking a pill, so I felt it was a small victory.
Today however hasn't been so good - bad fatigue, anxiety and negative thoughts.
I'd like to hear other people's experience with insomnia and coming out of depression.