i dont think i can handle this

[ittzkaikai_bruhh]

its been two weeks now that he has been inferring with my life. i have not been able to hold any food or liquids down. some days are better than others where i can go longer without throwing up but it happens at least once a day, more if i stress about him.. today was really bad. my primary told me to go to the ER if it worsens because he had prescribed me anti acids and nausea medication last week. come to find out at the ER nothing is physically wrong with me. my mind is playing tricks on me and i am so tired of it. i just woke up from a dream that felt so real. my ex came to my house to clear the air about his new gf and to talk to me. he came to the front door and he brought me socks (dont ask why) and then we sat down and talked about what hes been up to as if nothing ever happened, when i got to the hard questions like why he moved on so quickly, why he felt it was necessary, i woke up. i cant handle all of the uncertainty much longer, i am going insane. my bodily health is deteriorating because of this man who was supposed to love me for the rest of life but stopped as soon as he found an 18 year old play toy. i really dont wanna feel any of this anymore. i dont think j can handle this anymore.

[LonerWulf]

It is not abnormal for your body to react to your mind, and so common for people to go to ER and being told that there is nothing wrong with them. Things like anxiety, trauma, and related things have the potential to cause physical symptoms, and gastrointestinal reactions are some of the most common. Have it myself. I think the best is to see a psychiatrist. Knowing yourself I think you know that sensitive people like us do not handle breakups well at all. I am divorced for a year now and it caused me terrible anxiety at night and I think that part of my depressive symptoms are still because of it.

On a more supportive note, I am so sorry about your breakup and the symptoms (physical and emotional) that you are going through. Keep talking. We're all here to support you.

P.S. sorry if my use of language sounds a bit lofty, hope I do not come across as cold.

All the best

Wulf

[Careyon]

So sorry you’re going through this tough season in your life. Just know this is not a surprise to God. Call on Him for help. Pray, read His word for encouragement, try to find something else to focus on outside of your ex. Perhaps you should speak to a therapist or your pastor. Just know you’re stronger than you’re giving yourself credit. You may not feel it but you must dig deep down, pray for the strength to move forward, Healing for your mind, soul and body.