My first post

[Hoppy542]

This is the first time I'm writing this. I'm facing depression for months now and haven't gotten any support from my parents because they think I'm a kid to know.. Today also was one of the worst days ever.I ate 2 meals earlier and my mother doesn't think that's enough, I told her I'm full but instead of saying 'ok' she just said that i look sick and "what kind of sin did I commit to have you".....

[GlassPoodle]

Having depression is really hard. Sometimes you barely understand what’s happening to yourself. When family and friends see you suffering, sometimes they don’t know why and they don’t understand it. Talking with people who have gone through similar issues is helpful! I know you will find some support here.

[ayanakahara]

Before I opened up to my mother about my depression, she wasn't also perfect. She even came up to a point of telling me I should pull my shit together or else I'll end up like in a mental instution and she said that in a gruelling way possible. It's what kept me from telling her everything. But after I was forced to pour everything out to her (it didn't begin well but the one-on-one talk ended well), she'd become softer and more understanding than I could have expected and it's how I was able to seek a psychiatrist and ask for help. Nowadays, I'm under medications and my mom is more supportive than ever. I have a lot of changes in my life but my mom is always there by my side, even my whole family.

I don't have any knowledge of the ambience in your home but I'd encourage you to try to reach out and open up to your family even if it's like the scariest thing in your mind right now, even if what happens in reality goes against your ideal picture of what a parent should be (encouraging, open, and understanding). Trust me, you don't know the whole thing unless you start to work on it even though sometimes the idea of reaching out is daunting. But if reaching out to your family would prove not worth the effort in the end, then time to work things out by yourself. Reach to support groups like this (and hey, you've done it! Congratulations!) or seek out support groups near you that offers free consultation (because I know psychiatrists are really expensive). You can do it, I know you do. You've been enduring depression for months now and hey, look, you're still here. It will be a tough battle, really, and there'd be slip-outs along the way but just remember that you are not alone. We are here, people who feel the same way, and this support group will be here to listen to all your thoughts.

[Pamela2876]

I am so sorry you are facing this. Your life is so important and you have a great purpose in this life. I found this resource to be really helpful, if you have a moment check out the first video here bit.ly/2mFxWoz. You are in my thoughts!