Anxiety is back

[Anxout]

It has been a while since I posted. I have been so busy I have not had time to focus too much on my anxiety. However the last 2 nights I have had trouble sleeping because I am worried that the people I love will slowly die around me and I will be left all alone.

My fear cycles from my only sibling dying (she was recently diagnosed with ovarian cancer) my aging parents not being able to handle it and they die.

My husband getting cancer and dying. I will get cancer...

I just don’t know how people live through the loss of their family.

I feel sick with worry.

My husband said odds are all of my worrying will not happen, but if my sister (healthiest person I know and only 41) got cancer then anyone can and there is no sense to anything. My faith that everything will be ok has been blown apart and I am without an anchor.

I just don’t know how to feel safe and secure again.

[CatIsMyCopilot]

I think your husband is right, but I also think it's totally reasonable you would feel this way, as part of processing your sister's diagnosis. I'm so sorry.

[Amz1987]

So sorry you’re feeling this way and for your sister.

My mum has cancer, my fil was just diagnosed with terminal stomach cancer, besties dad just died of liver cancer and my bil died as a teen from cancer. So I totally get where you are coming from it seems like everyone is getting some form of cancer these days.

However I’m sure chances of you all dying from cancer won’t happen.

You have been shocked by your sisters diagnosis and it’s sent you into a panic.

Sending lots of love your way.