Rest

[gerrerd]

relax

[Sillysausage234]

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[Hidden]

On the verge of quitting this...I have ocd, anxiety and depression and it’s becoming way too much to deal with,

[gerrerd in reply to Hidden]

go to potentials unlimited online, get the relaxation download !

[Hidden in reply to gerrerd]

Going to take more than relaxation...I hurt a family member via social media during a manic phase and feel very guilty...wrote things that I should not have. Will regret it the rest of my life. Hoping Prozac will tame my thoughts of self destruction.

[gerrerd in reply to Hidden]

relaxation will make you, be less impulsive, and gain control of things, because whats inside will come out. you can think more clearly also. you need to control yourself and not be controlled by others !

[Hidden in reply to gerrerd]

True but when you sit with the guilt of having hurt someone it’s hard to move on...especially in my case where I have ocd. My brain never stops thinking...it’s a hideous disease.

[sweetiepye in reply to Hidden]

I have been thinking of doing this because I have been hurt and I want to hurt back. This would be a sure way of making that happen. I'm not sure what stops me. I guess because I would be embarrassing myself and my family. Sometimes I come very close. Try to let the guilt go , it may take time. You are probably not the only person to blame I imagine the other person bears some responsibility . Chalk this up to a lesson learned. I'll try to remember this next time I get in a payback mode. Pam

[Hidden in reply to sweetiepye]

Actually, the main problem is that the other person didn’t do anything to provoke me. I honestly don’t know why I did what I did other than the fact that I am manic depressive and have ocd...I have a very complex case of ocd brought on by trauma. When I asked the therapist if she could explain to me why I did what I did, all she could say was ‘it wasn’t you, it was the ocd’. Now I will bear this guilt for who knows how long, I actually considered ending my life but don’t have the guts to do so. I don’t want to die,,,just hate living with myself like this. The other person, my brother, has forgiven me, but I just can’t forgive myself, I was a totally normal pers. 2 years ago until trauma struck,,,,now my life is one living Ocd nightmare.

[gerrerd in reply to Hidden]

Start listening to Dr Wayne Dyer, you can watch some video,s on you tube, and you can get his progs at hay house

[sweetiepye in reply to Hidden]

It won't necessarily last forever. I am not a therapist, but I do have my opinion about our responsibility and do not entirely agree with your therapist. We are accountable for our actions / behavior even when we have a mental issue. Otherwise we would be above the law. So blaming your illness isn't productive. I don't think you need to feel guilty forever but you might want to think about why this happened. I believe things happen for a reason . You appear to be to cognizant for random behavior. Pam