Feeling so lost this week

[Finx]

My anxiety and depression have roared back this week with a few interactions at work that have left me feeling like a fraud who can’t get things done. Been in therapy and on meds for months but still all it takes is a couple of bad interactions to put me in a dive.

I had hoped therapy and meds would create a new floor for me but not the case. My defenses are tissue paper thin so I’m hyper sensitive. And I cannot seem to build up a fortification and tolerance.

I jump so quickly from feeling steady to hopelessness. Like I’m walking on a high wire. I don’t know how to exist in between.

Just looking as usual for some encouragement and collegiality. Thanks for listening.

[mysterymuse]

I know that feeling well. It's hard to find the balance between the two extremes sometimes for those of us with severe depression.

Keep on fighting and rely on your coping skills that you know work!

[Rocco2]

I know what you mean about feeling like a fraud. I'm very good at my job, but for quite a long time I feel like I've been phoning it in. I've tried a whole spectrum of drugs, but nothing worked for me. It seems unfair, but you have to keep hammering away at it. You're not alone, so hopefully knowing this will help.

[Snowyowl23]

Hi Finx - I have been feeling the same way recently... it’s hard when you swing wildly so much. I too am hypersensitive, and have little defenses. It’s a struggle sometimes. I applaud you in that you keep going - that is the hardest part of all. Stay strong! 🦉