Health anxiety

[Kevin160]

Hey everyone , im doing very well right now, very calm , enjoying everything ..and not having any stress or worry currently

However recently i noticed that my eyes are slightly yellowish in the sides and corners...to me this immediately triggered my health anxiety because i only knew that jaundice is caused by diseases such as liver and pancreatic cancer , i tried for the first few days to calm , not google, although i remember from my excessive googling days that this can be a sign of cancer , in addition to many others ..but my mind just went blank all day. Feeling as if i have already been diagnosed ...thinking about my life, my age , whta i have done right and wrong , feeling this sinking feeling that i want to panic but i dont at the same time ..i find my self playing with choices and statistics

My eating is much better, my weight is not increasing but im not losing weight eventhough my eating has been a bit of too much junkfood, i do many activities between school and walking, exercising sometimes, going out ..and my eating is nit scheduled, like i can go sometimes a whole day without food of small snacks then eat a big burger at night which i know is wrong but i didnt worry at first for my weight being a problem eventhough that could be a sign of something ..but my weight is not drastically decreaisng its almost the same each time i measure it ....

The jaundice appeared suddenly ..or atleast i never noticed it ..i was putting my contacts on and first time i notice it ..i hoped it would be from stress and anxiety , but im not sure..my abdominal pain that i went for to the doctor and lack of appetite l he gave me tests and all came back nirmal , my appetite is back which is comforting and a good sign, but the dull lower abdominal pain in the right side is annoying me , and it worsens after eating or poking it ...they suspected appendicitis but no ..im scheduling an appointment but i just need support and someone telling me if there is a chance of being okay ?

Because something feels off and when i went to doctors they all said im fine , and my appetite is back but the pain is there, i dont want to doubt the doctors like most people with health anxiety but there could be mistakes so how do i be calmer because im nit panicking but i keep thinking about it

My skin is normal color im usually normal not pale, no one ever said i looked yellow, but my eyes recently looked yellow so its just my eyes ..my upper right side abdominal pain ..sometimes nausea ...nothing else i can remember ..i recently got a tattoo too so im a bit worried it could be a liver virus , pancreatic disease, i dont drink alcohol, smoke , my family smokes so its mostly negative smoking, im of great bmi, right height and weight ..but i always wake up woth alot of abdominal pain , no digestive problems usually, just nausea sometimes os im not sure, the whole anxiety or ohysical spiral is making me worried because what if i attributed my anxiety to everything that when i went to the doctor i made him think its anxiety, maybe its my fault, i didnt explain my symptoms well, i didnt answer questions in detail, maybe he wasnt good, he said it was gastritis , but this new symptom is throwiing me off and scaring me

[Kat63]

I know you have health anxiety, and that makes it hard to tell whether you really have a health problem or whether it’s the health anxiety.

Let me ask you this: have you gotten therapy specifically for the health anxiety?

I am not an expert - I don’t have health anxiety and I don’t know much about it. But it seems to be pretty common, so maybe there are therapists who specialize in it.

[Kevin160 in reply to Kat63]

I had general counselling very long time ago , due to bullying and stuff..but it wasnt that serious just a few sessions i wouldnt even mention it ...i wanted to start therapy early this year but i started feeling much better and honestly things were all over the place regarding my family and school, etc..plus my parents dont really give me support so im not sure if i can go in the time being

[Kevin160 in reply to Kat63]

Im going to take an appointment for my physical symptoms to a gastrologist or something , then we will see, i dont have my own financial support its from my parents so if they believe i dont need therapy its hard to go ..so,we will see first what happens with the gastrologist, because after all i realized about my anxiety and my life and myself , and all the meditation techniques, breathing habits i learnt , im feeling much better, claire weekes podcasts, exercising , im sleeping and eating better now , im feeling a bit healthier ..im having more good days with no stress than the few bad days i sometimes get, i feel i have my life back ..and i feel like everything is almost normal because i can go out, do things like before, and here i have support which always keeeps me calm ...so we will see but thanks for the advice and help and support❤️❤️