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[CallMeByYourSquid]

I don’t feel like taking my much needed anti-depressant. But I’ve been down this road before with disastrous results. I will probably need meds for the rest of my life.

My doctor said it’s the same as a diabetic who needs their insulin but I have trouble believing him.

I’ve been having the same thought pattern recently that the better I feel and the more progress I make the sillier I feel for most of my irrational thoughts pushing to the surface. But that’s kinda the point of all this right? Of being able to recognize the difference between real and fake brain news.

Don’t give up on me yet she said to the neurons that still fire correctly.

Fukc it.💊🥛.

[Kat63]

You’re doing the right thing to keep on with your meds.

[CallMeByYourSquid in reply to Kat63]

Thank you for the support.

I took them.

[amazing_grace]

TAKE UR MEDS BITCH. You gotta be here for those working neurons and I swear to god if you don't take them I will hack into this computer system find your info stalk you and shove them down your throat. Seriously though please please take them depression is a illness its not our fault! You gotta fight this darkness with all you got and meds really can help! Maybe you should switch tho if they aren't helping.

[CallMeByYourSquid in reply to amazing_grace]

Thank you.

I took them.

These are the only ones that have ever worked for me.

Sometimes I want to be able to fix it alone.

[amazing_grace in reply to CallMeByYourSquid]

Im so hip to that I always feel like such a failure for not being able to do it myself but then at the same time I have to remind myself that you would never walk up to some one with a broken arm and say hey its all in your head, just change your attitude and it will get better! If you have a broken arm you get a cast, mental illness you get meds.

[amazing_grace in reply to amazing_grace]

also take em tommorow and the day after that and the one after that act. Is there someone in your life who could help you take them? I know it can be really helpful to have someone else who is keeping you accountable.

[CallMeByYourSquid in reply to amazing_grace]

I have a very intelligent husband who loves me and denies how bad I can get sometimes. But he knows when to step up.

[CallMeByYourSquid in reply to amazing_grace]

Well some of it IS in my head. The pills minimize the impact.