Insomnia

I suffer from anxiety, depression and ocd. The insomnia I suffer night after night is seriously causing me to think of ending it all. This is no way to live. I suffered a trauma over a year ago and cannot get past it. If not for my wonderful family, I would have ended it long ago. Life was so good before all of this.

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Hi! I too have so many nights that I’m up replaying days, conversations and past traumas in my head. I’ve been dealing with a childhood trauma all of my life. I’ve done therapy for years and it’s helped me so much. I wish I could say time will make it better but the only thing you can do is learn how to live with the trauma. Learn how to grow past it and build yourself up from it. Ending your life is such a permanent decision! Your family needs you. Life will be good again! You’re going to have bad days and/or bad nights but you will learn how to have a normal life again.

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Encouraging...I hope you are correct!

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Not going to sugar coat it though, it’s a tough journey. But it’s a possible one! When I have a difficult time sleeping I try meditation and deep breathing techniques. It at least helps me relax my body and distract my mind for a while. Even if it seems like something you’re not interested in, you should look into some similar things online. Worth a shot!

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May I ask, do you take medication

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No I don’t. I currently can’t afford heath insurance so I’m basically battling this on my own. & I have the worst anxiety about taking medication.

[JAYnLA]

Hi Return -

You're anonymous here so if you need to open up, do. Someone here will completely understand.

[sweetiepye]

Is it possible to see a sleep specialist ? I had my first sleep study done last week and haven't received the results yet, but I'm hoping for some solutions. I have had insomnia for years, it's gotten so bad I go for 2 to 3 days without sleep and then I'll crash. It's also created other health issues. I sometimes think I'm going crazy. I'll post any information I get. I think it will take some time before it gets better. "To sleep , perchance to dream" as Mr.S. says. Pam

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I know that my insomnia stems from trauma. May I ask what other health issues it has caused? Thanks

[sweetiepye]

Well I have Afib and it contributes to that, I am over weight and have Diabetes. I eat at night with no memory of it I find the dishes in the morning. I have fallen many times. I do many strange things...I have taken medicine , changed clothes, experience hallucinations. It's dangerous and takes your life or changes it. It makes you cranky and hard to get along with. I can't remember things and I am exhausted all of the time.