Since Monday's dr appt and not having any luck with uping my meds due to thoughts of self harm ie cutting myself. I do common ground before the dr's appt and the person tells me to call office of temporary assistance and tell them I"m homeless and that they will put me in a shelter and if they were full they would put me in a hotel. Was also told by the same person that i should have been assigned a social worker when I went on medicaid and food stamps. So when I saw my therapist yesterday and told her about the social worker part the therapist told me that the other person had no right to tell me that. Now I feel bad enough that I dont know who to believe or even trust now. I already have trust issues with people which i had for several years now. Also feel like people dont believe me when I say things and this happened last week when there was a snow storm and the town rescheduled trash and when I gave correct information and who I spoke to they didnt care. One person said I'm following someone else's comment about the situation. At the end I was correct with the information Why even bother being in this world when people in the medical field don't care or even people in the community you live in.
Its bad enough that I'm having anxiety attacks at night and was told that was normal even on medication. Great. even with self harm they didnt care.
What are you thinking right now? How are you? 
My life is so conflicting right now
Really struggling right now
