Wanting to want something

[DevonBlimke]

My whole life I’ve been running, new school every year until I graduated high school different living situations with different family members. I never seen it as a problem but it finally has caught up to me, I can no longer commit to anyone or anything after a month I always give up on every body and become super avoiding like I become scared of the person and it’s such a tragedy my girlfriend of 3 years was the only thing I could keep in my life and she left me last week and I guess after searching for so long and then losing it I honestly don’t feel good without her at all. It sounds cheesy and like every break up. But she was the only girl my anxiety accepted my entire life so it must’ve been something real right ?

[jazzpw]

Possibly, and that shows you that you are capable of love and a secure attachment!

[Mumma_h]

Don't be so hard on yourself! Most of us have a time in our life when we're searching for what will work for us and make us happy and swap and change where we live or our occupation. You sound like you are young and this is totally normal . You will find your place unexpectedly , in the mean time be kind to yourself, enjoy each day . You will find love again with someone who understands your anxiety as well and if they don't then they're not right for you. I open up to people too and then shut them out because of fear I've told them too much and get scared. Hope you have people in your life who truly care about you , close friends, a parent, grandparent or anyone that loves you; don't shut them out and trust them 😀