Depressing title, sorry. Having a hard couple of nights for the first time in a while. I reached out too, also rare, but unfortunately not physically around anyone who actually gets it. I searched support groups, stumbled upon this app and thought, fuck it.
So, hey. How’s it goin?
Hey Jasmine,
I'm really sorry to hear you aren't getting help around. People don't always seem to get the mental stuff too well. We don't have a broken bone wrapped in a cast, not limping around on crutches, and so on. There's far less compassion for something people can't really see and they're more likely to chalk it up to being moody, angry, and all those fun words that make us feel worse.
Forgot to say it, but welcome. I joined a few months ago and this place truly is somewhere you can find helpful and inspiring people who feel a lot like you. I think it's great you reached out and took that step.
I'm sorry to hear things have been rough and that you're feeling lonely. It's also awful to hear no one physically around you can be there and help out during a difficult time. Sometimes those around us need education on how to handle things like depression, anxiety, or whatever. Whether it's just listening or a simple hug.
So, what's causing you to feel lonely and giving you the rough nights? If you'd rather not share, I understand, but know you aren't alone and that the rough nights have no where to go but back up to some good days/nights. I hope your night improves and you know there's always an ear here for ya.
Take care for now,
Patrick
I found this app the exact same way, “support groups” and this popped up also. There is a reason as to why we’re chosen to feel more than the rest. They’ll never have a backbone as strong as yours. Be strong, hang on! You have my full support ❤️ always msg me if you need a friend. I’m kinda new here too
I appreciate your response, thank you. And thank you for the encouragement. I noticed you said “simple hug”. Ironic because that’d prob be the biggest thing for me right now. Well actually most times I feel this way all I need is to be held tight. Had to share that because it totally stuck with me after I read it.
As far as all the whats/whys, I’ve been battling with my depression since I could remember, it just wasn’t until recently that I decided to actually get a hold of it. I also tried drinking, not drinking, some other things that you mentioned, and therapy (luckily I have a therapist that I trust and can be vulnerable with). Specifically this time around is one of my more frustrating lows because I can’t think of anything “bad” that’s happening. I love my life, my family, my job. So when I randomly got struck with my symptoms it typically comes on real quick, along with my own, “wtf why?!” moments. I’m working on communicating all of this with my partner but he doesn’t quite seem to understand. He can be pretty insensitive; has a knack for making me feel the most alone on these days/nights. I try to tell myself that I realized a few years ago that he isn’t someone I can rely on in these moments. Hard part is that I’m hours away from the ppl in my life who will actually hold me tight/remain sturdy during these darker times.
As you could imagine there’s a lot more I can say, but for tonight that’s what’s goin on. I feel super alone, your reply was very refreshing (also anxiety provoking) and my eyes are starting to burn.
Thanks for checkin in, have a good night tonight (mornin now where I’m at).
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