Yes I'm smiling but inside I'm dying

[Bleeink]

the title is what I'm experiencing right now. I just wanna thank everyone who helped me yesterday, it was deeply appreciated and opening up like this is such a nice experience for me right now, idk why but it is. Today I talked with some friends and told them what I feel, it was great too. But today had been a long and rough day at school, everyone's eyes was on me. Its truly suffocating, exhausting and I was ready to hide on my shell forever. I lost my appetite, in the morning I only drank 1 bottle of water and had "hello" biscuit for lunch. I've been telling this to everyone because I'm scared. So scared of what might happen to me, but I can't stop feeling this way. As if a whole new soul had been taking my body off of me, I lost myself. The circles under my eyes are getting bigger, my head's really heavy and I can't seem to cry, I wanna cry, but I can't and worse is I kept on palpitating and feeling loaded on my chest that I can't get it off.

[Mary-intussuception]

Could you arrange to see your doctor as soon as possible?

Meanwhile get an early night? It must be 9.45pm there now. Keep drinking water.

Try some light food if you can , do you have any more of those biscuits or any boiled sweets.

[AZ1970]

Are you seeing a doctor? It sounds like you could get some relief from medication. I am sorry you are struggling. It is good you are reaching out. I know when I talk about tough things, I can feel exhausted the next day. Perhaps you are feeling the same?

[Sadiesmile]

Is there any way you could take a day or two off? Sounds like you need to stay in your jammies and rest yourself. To just forget the outside world for a bit. Just let go and have yourself a peace break. I am trying to practice mindfulness. It is hard but when I can get into it, it does help me feel better. I am here if you need to talk.