Keep trying.

[gerrerd]

!

[Agora1]

Isn't that the truth

Thanks gerrerd

[gerrerd in reply to Agora1]

😋

[Starrlight]

You know in the past I kept breaking down and was so bad off that I put myself in danger and the most important things in life seemed to be slipping away and I had so much fear as there seemed life or death situations all the time the anxiety was killing me slowly but I was keeping hope that the next key was going to be it...now I’ve found a new spot...not the exact door I wanted open but one that has opportunity for a bit of a better life but I soon realized that in seeing myself more clearly and the better I get the more I am aware of all that has to happen to be fixed and it’s really dragging me down; not that I do not want to work because I am a hard worker but it’s all very overwhelming...I’m angry for lost time, my heart aches although that’s in past...I’m still angry and I’m not at my best ever the best I dream of and know is in me...and so I try to make good of now but that feels never enough because I am so restless. And strangely the better I feel the more frequent the suicidal ideation has become. The future looks lonely and scary. I feel thrown into life with no oars. And I know I’m not there yet. So anyway I get strong enough to take on more waves. But then it doubles and triples the things that come up. I am willing to fight and better myself but it seems like as I go along lightening strikes and stones from nowhere fall and I am at a dead end suddenly again to work through until another falls and it just keeps happening. I guess this is the life I didn’t expect as we don’t have all that much control. I have to try to understand myself and life better. Sometimes it all seems like a dream where you’re being chased. I want to slide into a door leading to heaven now please. Sorry so long. Thanks for listening.

[gerrerd in reply to Starrlight]

Be here now. That's all there is. The past has gone. You make your own future now. Let go relax, what comes , comes. Experience the now, just live one day at a time. Enjoy the now, you can't if you think about the future or the past. They do not exist, they are just in your mind.😋

[Starrlight in reply to gerrerd]

😊 🙏

[gerrerd in reply to Starrlight]

👁️👁️🤗

[Starrlight in reply to gerrerd]

Haha now I better be good and relax because those eyes are watching 😉

[gerrerd in reply to Starrlight]

😋

[Sunnidayz1 in reply to Starrlight]

I understand how you feel and I agree w gerred...here and now. One thing at a time. I get overwhelmed too & Im not working but I know everyday Im getting better and I will work & when I do it'll be something that Im passionate about and that would be wirth the wait. Just keep moving forward. Some days will be hard and that's life. It happens to all of us.

Take care

Xx

[Starrlight in reply to Sunnidayz1]

Thanks Sunnidayz1 😊

[Sunnidayz1 in reply to Starrlight]

Anytime. We are all here for each other.

Xx