What does it mean...

Butterpeanut stands for Borderline personality disorder, my controlling x bf said that was what I had. He convinced me with all of his psycobabal. I had just gotten separated from my husband, x husband. We had been married for over 20 years, he too was controling. I grew up with a submissive mother, who I don't fault, she tried her best with what she knew. My father was controling, probably the era. He was still a narcissistic, probably from his childhood, the usual story. No matter what, we are still stuck with our baggage, issues as they call them. Back to butterpeanut, I didn't like the actual terminology name. I did have a lot of the symptoms however I did not have the major, on point symptom. Blacking out when my other personalities so called popped up, not from drinking. Blacking out from drinking, just too much alcohol. I appreciate this site so I can journal my experience and if anyone who reads it and gets insight or just finds it humorous, entertaining, what not to do. As you can read, I try to be lite of my baggage, gets too heavy sometimes lugging that heavy baggage around lol, there I go again. Butterpeanut, I do not have, thank you very much controling x bf.

[jkl5500]

It looks like your controlling x bf used "scary" terms like "borderline personality disorder" to intimidate and, yes, control you. Does he have a background in psychology? If not, you should pay no attention to it, or him.