Unappreciated.

One of those days today where I just want to SCREEEEAMMMMM so loud!!!

IS IT SO HARD FOR PEOPLE TO JUST BE RESPECTFUL OF OTHERS FEELINGS SERIOUSLY?!!!!!

Narcissists man.... it’s a difficult difficult life to be related to them !

[Hidden]

Girllll, I have lots of land behind my house. Wanna go scream as loud as we possibly can together? I’ve been wanting to do that with someone. I feel the same way right now. I am here for you. 💕💕💕

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Hidden]

😃we could sing Christmas 🎄 Carroll’s behind your house🎵🎶

[Hidden in reply to Sillysausage234]

Ermmm that’s too cheery for my mood today haha! You can do that as baking vocals

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Hidden]

slow breathing tequniques Hope 😊

[Hidden in reply to Sillysausage234]

Go on then which carol you going for?! 🎄 🎶

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Hidden]

Erm amazing grace well more of a hymn really or hallelujah Leonard Cohen 🎵🎶and your choice when you feel more hymny

[Hidden in reply to Sillysausage234]

Oh gosh I don’t think I’ve got the lungs for them two loool I’ll be like ‘ahem AAAAAMMMMMMMMMAZIIII ‘coughSplutter NNNNNNGGGG GGGGRRRRR’cough’AAAAAAZEEEEEE

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Hidden]

🤣🤣me too like the cats choir between us,might just have to settle for Rudolph the red nosed reindeer 🎵🎶

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Let’s go !!!!

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I say skip the holly jolly songs & scream like we already had planned. Xoxoxoxo

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Hidden]

Kayla you xmas buzz along🎶🎵killer that was last night...are you still grumpy 😡 cmon tell me why......jingle bells 🔔 maybe?

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Haha! 😂 which way shall I go! The angry screaming side or the jolly carols side 🤔

[Sillysausage234]

Hi hope,wishing you peace ✌🏼

[Hidden in reply to Sillysausage234]

You too !

[Starrlight]

Hope I hear you. ❤️

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

💕

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Hope you’re having a better time hun 💕

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I told Starrlight to scream the other day you can join us and make a chorus, hopefully someone doesn't call the cops 😂😂

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Lol we’re starting a choir up there 👆🏽 loool go ahead and join us x

[Starrlight]

I can relate to your feelings of wanting to scream and guess what I was on the phone with my therapist and I was getting frustrated by her but then suddenly I screamed super loud repeating that I was having a hard time. You know what though this is bullshit, the way we are pretty much in a constant battle like someone is playing with our minds and souls it’s scary and I’m tired. Fuck it! I just wont keep feeling like this... woah I am sorry Hope I went off there didn’t I well I will just won’t let demons win. I wish I could cry but I am just angry at this point. 😡

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Starrlight]

🤭

[Starrlight in reply to Sillysausage234]

Yeah I could have expressed myself better eh ? But I think I just need to not care so much, be free, not hold back and face the consequences.

[Starrlight in reply to Starrlight]

Sorry if I upset anyone.

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Starrlight]

Don’t hold back,let the flying fuck get out there ✌🏼

[Starrlight in reply to Sillysausage234]

Omg you cracked me up Alan!!! Thanks

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

You didn’t offend me!!!! I am sick of everyone’s shit too!!! Lol!! Xoxoxo

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

😘

[Starrlight in reply to Starrlight]

It’s 5:00 in the morning. You can’t sleep either?

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

I was sleeping! Hehe! I just woke up to check the app & went right back to sleep! We are too funny! I am tickled!!!! Xoxoxoxo

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Haaaaa!

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Hidden]

🤭 o.m.jolly golly gosh kayla mermaid

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Yaaaaaaaaas 👏🏽 speak it!

[Hidden in reply to Sillysausage234]

Wowwww ALAN SWORE!!!!!!

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Hidden]

😳 Only because starrlight did

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Oh do not even worry about it ... I hardly ever swear but my Northern England part of me just fleeeewwww out of my mouth today phew 😓

You let it all out hun x

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

I’m not one to swear either except for long ago but the other day I started feeling like it, this is a time of my life that I can let go a bit not be who I think maybe I’m supposed to be but to really to true to myself. So if I feel I need to say fuck it I will.

[Michael8072 in reply to Starrlight]

At times when I have that feeling I'll put a song on that I know has some screaming in it and lots of cusswords and start singing it. sometimes that helps me when I'm in a funky mood.

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Starrlight]

🤣the ever sweet starrlight I’m glad you can finally say fuck it and share with us thank you Say it like an affirmation over and over don’t listen to your therapist xx

[Starrlight in reply to Sillysausage234]

❤️ (((((((((Alan))))))) ❤️

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Starrlight]

🎄🎶🌤 good morning enjoy your day xx

[Starrlight in reply to Sillysausage234]

Good morning awesome you! Thank you so!

❤️ 🌞 🌟 ✌️ 🌲 ☀️ 🌺 🦋 🌻 🥀🎄 🐚 🌳 ⛅️ 🌈 look I look like you with all my emojis 😉

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Starrlight]

Haha it’s good to go emoji 🤪crazy once in a while✌🏼 🤓🎄🌹🎶🎵🎸🎹🎻xx

[Starrlight in reply to Sillysausage234]

I think you are right on that 🤣 🦅 🌳 ✌️ ❤️ 💐 ☀️ 💫

[Michael8072]

I hope your having a better day.

[Hidden in reply to Michael8072]

Hey thanks!

I’ve had a busy day yesterday so just resting today

How are you doing

[darkshadow]

I can get bad tempered too but mostly I just cry. As a result , I feel exhausted every day. My overwhelming feeling is of sadness not anger. My new medication is not working yet although I began it about 5 or 6 weeks ago.

[Hidden in reply to darkshadow]

Yes I’m the same sometimes I get so angry and because I don’t like arguing it turns into crying

Im sorry you’re having a rough time maybe go back to doctors and discuss your concerns?

I hope that works

How are you today

[darkshadow in reply to Hidden]

I'm awful today. I think I'm getting worse, not better. Nobody sees how desperate I get as it only shows properly when I'm alone.I'm totally alone tonight--Xmas Eve--and I sob my heart out when I remember years gone by. I was never alone then. My head feels as if it will burst but still I can't stop the tears. I feel sick with emptiness but I can't think of anything I want to eat. I have abdominal cramps and feel weak. There is nobody I can speak to.Who wants to listen to someone like me on Xmas Eve? Nobody. I think I would choose to stay in bed all day but I can't do that either. My dog and cat need to be fed and looked after. I can't go on like this for much longer. Something has to be done.

[Hidden in reply to darkshadow]

Hello I’m so sorry to hear you’re struggling.. you say it’s getting worse maybe you need to seek professional help to help you manage it ?

Hey darkshadow come and join us on my new post ! We’re missing you there and you’re very very welcome

[darkshadow]

I've been having professional help. I've seen my doctor, a mental nurse regularly and a psychiatrist twice. Nothing is helping me.