Dying ?

[anon99]

Sorry to post again 🙄 I still can’t get this constant feeling that I’m going to die soon to go away .. has anybody gone through this ? I feel like I’m never going to get through this and be myself again . I’m tired

[Spf1875]

I go through it on a near enough daily basis so I know exactly how you're feeling. I usually do something to take my mind off it

[anon99 in reply to Spf1875]

It freaks me out .. do people really know when they’re gonna die ?!?!

[Spf1875 in reply to anon99]

I don't know? However we are all going to at some point so I just keep telling myself that and it kind of subsides a little.

[Rpan]

It’s called rumination. When we get stuck on s feeling or a thought. Maybe if you look it up it will help you to understand it. The more you know the less it will scare you. I too have this same feeling, it’s just a symptom. It will pass. Try not to let it scare you so much, it’s normal.

[anon99 in reply to Rpan]

Thankyou I will look it up . It’s horrible

[Rpan in reply to anon99]

Ya it stinks, but it goes away. It just takes some education and work.its about breaking the pattern. Keep talking about it..

[anon99 in reply to Rpan]

I also have depersonalization which makes it so scary .. it feels like everything feels and looks different . I’m glad To know I’m not alone .. just can’t imagine what I’ll be thinking when I’m looking back next year . Hope I never go through this ever again in my lifetime

[Tamka39 in reply to anon99]

I experience derealization and depersonalization when I smoke some marijuana in my teen years and my life was upside down ever since that day

[anon99 in reply to Tamka39]

I use to smoke weed every day, all day I quit three months ago because it makes me anxiety worse

[Tamka39 in reply to anon99]

I started back smoking marijuana because I have a medical marijuana card but like u said it only makes me more depressed and anxious and paranoid

[Tamka39 in reply to anon99]

Do you take medication

[anon99 in reply to Tamka39]

No I really don’t want to turn to medication .. plus the side effects make me so much more anxious . I’m starting counseling in a few weeks though

[Rpan]

I really try to look at these times just as symptoms. I know it sucks to feel like this, I too have felt like this off and on. But learning how not to be scared and frightened when these times happen is the key. Once there is no fear or sadness attached to these times they pass. Keep learning and talking.

[anon99 in reply to Rpan]

Its really hard to set aside my emotions ☹️

[Tamka39 in reply to anon99]

Same here do u practice deep breathing and meditation

[anon99 in reply to Tamka39]

I haven’t . I want to but don’t know where to start ?

[Speechpat in reply to anon99]

There are some great meditation sites on YouTube. Headspace and Calm are two that I use.

[anon99 in reply to Speechpat]

Thankyou I will check them out

[Tamka39 in reply to Rpan]

I need to learn that

[Rpan]

That’s so weird, I too began having all these issues when I was smoking weed all day every day. This is the first I’ve ever heard of someone having these issues, like me from smoking weed. I quit 25 years ago and never looked back. Incredible

[anon99 in reply to Rpan]

It is , it use to calm me down . Now it makes things way worse . I have read where the chemicals from thc and the chemical imbalance from anxiety do not mix well

[Tamka39 in reply to anon99]

Oh I didn’t know that because a lot of people use marijuana for anxiety and depression now

[anon99 in reply to Tamka39]

I know . I use to but everybody reacts differently kinds like meds

[Rpan in reply to anon99]

Absolutely.. at least that is definitely true for me. What’s was incredible for me is it just happened one day. It was like I was fine today and the next day a mess. Which turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to me because I never did another drug. Thing is is started using when I was 13 and smoked everyday until I was 23, so because of my age it wasn’t good

[anon99 in reply to Rpan]

Same I smoked until I was 15 and am now 19 .

[babygirl1952]

I USE TO SEE MYSELF DIE EVERY DAY SOME WOULD KILL ME IN MANY DIFFERENT WAYS THIS IS CRAZY I USED TO SAY IT DROVE ME NUTS I USED JUST TO PASS OUT BUT I DONT DO THAT ANY MORE MY DOCTOR HAS MY MEDS RIGHT NOW SO ALL THAT WENT AWAY I HOPE YOU GET BETTER SOON DEAR

[anon99 in reply to babygirl1952]

Thankyou . I feel like I’ll never get the old me back . I’m glad you’re having better days 🙂

[ForwardBound]

Ive had it too lately. It scares me to think of my kids finding my body or me not seeing them grow up.

[anon99 in reply to ForwardBound]

I don’t have kids , but I too have been scared my boyfriend would wake up in bed and I’d be lifeless. Very disturbing thoughts 😞 I’ve never told anybody these things .. it almost gives me the chills typing it out

[Dogmom55]

I have nights where I won't sleep because I'll have a feeling if I go to sleep I will die. I understand how you feel. I am so sorry you are feeling this. Hope that you find relief soon!

[anon99 in reply to Dogmom55]

Same here , I use to stay up every night until 4 am until my eyes just could not stay open any longer . As soon as I felt myself falling asleep I would jump up and freak out . Some nights I’m still scared but not as bad . I use to be afraid of that ever since I was a little girl . Hope you find relief also , Thankyou . It’s good to know I am not alone

[Japaholic]

Actually I have felt this to some degree. When I say die, I mean more like my life being over. I am almost 50 so should have a long way to go yet but I cant get being on the scrap heap (literally) out of my head. I should be going into my golden years of retirement, my worry when I say my life being over is a very real poverty/homelessness/hunger/destitution scenario with suicide being possibly the only viable option.

[anon99 in reply to Japaholic]

I understand . I’m sorry you feel this way .. I often feel suicide is the only way to end all of these hopeless feelings . But it is never the answer . Sending many good vibes your way 💜

[pink318]

Hi Anon,

I’m sorry you are going through this. I’m glad you will start counselling soon. I hope it will help you to get better from anxiety. You are in prayers. Please keep us posted. Take care.

[Leah8414]

Your feeling the doom feeling which stems from depression and triggers anxiety. Nobody knows when there gonna die, sometimes the doom feeling can take you to a very deep place of fear . I know all to well the fear of dieing but it's not for myself its fear of not knowing if my kids and loved ones will be ok . We won't know when we pass just like we did not remember coming in to this life . That is my belief that helps me cope . You take one day at a time . And you take care of yourself everyday do one thing nice for yourself . Pay attention to the days you feel good and the days you dont notice up lead up to that for you to have those feelings and throw something positive in there whether its self positive self talk or doing something for yourself that makes you feel good or doing something for someone else or with someone else . Keep your mind busy with today dont worry about tomorrow till it gets here . Those thoughts you have are your fears the feeling of doom is weighing you down . You will be alright just believe one day at a time .

[anon99 in reply to Leah8414]

Thank you so much for your reply it brought tears to my eyes ❤️