Heartbroken

[Callie429]

How to you let go when it’s been your life since age 14?

[faulhallen]

Hello Callie. I’m not sure I can help but can I get a little more information about what’s going on?

[Callie429 in reply to faulhallen]

I will try to give as much information but also not to drag it out to overwhelm your mind.

[Callie429 in reply to faulhallen]

I have been with my kids father since 14. It was not perfect but it’s all I ever wanted a family. I grew up without my dad, with a mom not all the time there, being sexually abuse, and other abuse. He has been there and no long wants to be. How do I get through walking away? All I want is to not live among other stressful events happen. I don’t do well with stress, anxiety, being overwhelmed. I go straight to suicidal thoughts. I want to remove the emotional part of my head so I can’t feel.

[faulhallen in reply to Callie429]

My story is vastly different than yours so I don’t know how useful all of my insights would be. I’m in the process of getting a divorce after 10 years but they weren’t exactly happy years. I know what you mean by wanting to remove your emotions but that’s no way to live even if it were possible sadly. At least not in my opinion. I enjoy my happiness when I have it.

was your life with him predominantly happy? Were there a lot of things leading to this decision? You can tell me as much details as you want. Don’t worry about burdening me. It’s up to you. You can always message me if you don’t want it public.

[Callie429]

Oh my, divorcing after so many years of commitment has to be tough. Agreed, taking happiness whenever it happens and soaking it up.

At times we were happy. Yes, there was cheating on his part that produced a child, there was all types of abuse and we were still babies when we met in sept 95. We got pregnant in 97. We were so young and we started our journey a little rocky. I fought hard not to repeat the bad actions from me growing up into my life with him. It didn’t pan out the way I planned.

[aaronm in reply to Callie429]

I can't relate to all of that...well really only the depression and anxiety. My story is much different but. I DO understand mental illness. I'm here to listen anytime you like!!!

[Callie429 in reply to aaronm]

Thank you

[SmilesLots]

Getting divorced felt like grieving a death for me. The first year was really tough. Now I'm really fine about the divorce. I do suffer from depression and anxiety, but not about the divorce.