Is there something wrong with me?

[gilded_masquerade]

For as long as I can remember I've always felt like I could never measure up to anything or anyone, like no matter what I do I'm never going to be good enough.

It doesn't even matter what instance it is school, relationships both romantic and business, friends, family, you name it.

And on top of that I feel like I'm the worst person in the world despite never really having done anything seriously malevolent. Sure I have a temper and I can be a bit of a bitch at times (pardon my French) but for the most part I'm a good person, I think.

I always put myself down or create these ridiculously high standards of myself that I know aren't realistic.

So why do I feel this way? Why do I convince myself that I'm a monster when I haven't done anything close to earning the title?

I feel like I'm a burden to practically everyone (especially myself), like I can't do anything or be who people need me to be.

Hell, I don't even really know who I am.

I know my last relationship (the narcissistic abuser) certainly added to all of this but all of those feelings were always kinda there...

Is this normal...?

PS, sorry my posts are always kinda lengthy, I just feel really comfortable being able to ramble on about the nonsensical mess of thoughts in my head...

[Agora1]

Hi gilded, never be sorry for rambling on especially on this forum. This helps us to understand you better so that we can relate and support you. I tend to "babble" when I start talking especially about my anxious thoughts and issues. *my poor therapist doesn't get a word in at times.

We have so much going on in our minds that the words can't come out fast enough. This comes from having been with people always putting us down, making us feel insignificant and belittling our issue. Of course you are a good person. I've never met an anxious person who wasn't. We wear our hearts on our sleeve, we think with our hearts and not our heads. We shouldn't allow anyone to take away our self esteem and self confidence. We can do anything we want to achieve if we put our mind to it.

No one has the right to take away our right to live as we want. Remember "Don't allow your life to be controlled by others" "Never let someone change who you are, to become what they need"......A good video to watch on YouTube is "How to Build Self Confidence" by Michelle Phan... Stay true to yourself gilded_masquerade xx

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Inferiority complex.